Title: And a Star Came to Imladris
Author: Morgana
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Web page: http://www.paranoid.nl/avalon
Pairing:
Erestor/Glorfindel
Rating:
NC-17
Summary: A drained Elf arrives in Imladris carrying a precious charge with him.
Glorfindel, being Glorfindel, reaches out to them.
Disclaimer:
Not mine. These characters belong to Professor Tolkien. No copyright
infringement is intended. I'm not making any money out of these stories!
Warning: AU of course, mention of abuse.
Beta read by Patricia and DA, thanks sweeties!
All
remaining mistakes are mine.
And a Star Came to Imladris
Commotion
coming from the doorway caught Glorfindel’s attention and distracted him from
his paperwork. He was eager to finish before sunset, which came earlier these
winter days. He wanted to join the other Elves in the Hall of Fire to celebrate
the shortest day. After the longest night of the year, the days would grow
longer again and spring would return shortly to
Imladris. But that peaceful feeling was abruptly shattered when he heard a heartbreaking
plea.
“Please
do not take me before your Lord! I promise I will not steal again! Show mercy!
It was only a slice of bread!”
Glorfindel
didn’t recognize the pleading voice and surmised that a stranger, unfamiliar
with Imladris’ customs, had come to the valley. Elrond and his household
greatly valued hospitality and the thought that someone had turned to stealing
in order to still his hunger made him feel uncomfortable. After placing his
quill down, Glorfindel raised his gaze and directed it toward the doorway.
Melpomaen
entered the Captain’s office. Walking in front of the Advisor was a haggard
looking Elf who was obviously on the brink of panic. Glorfindel blinked as he
saw the large, brown eyes and the dark circles beneath them. They told him that
the Elf in question had had little sleep. The cheekbones stood out sharply and
the face was much too gaunt to belong to a healthy Elf. Another look showed
Glorfindel that the new arrival was wearing worn clothes with holes in them.
The cloak, which should have kept the stranger warm, was thin and wrapped
tightly around the raven-haired Elf’s frame. Long, tangled, dirty strands of
hair tumbled down the Elf’s shoulders and some locks hid the stranger’s face
from Glorfindel’s inquisitive gaze. “Melpomaen, what is this about?”
The
instant Glorfindel raised his voice was the moment the stranger gave in to his
panic and stumbled forward, going down on his knees in front of the large oak
desk at which sat Glorfindel in the end. The large eyes revealed fear and distress
and Glorfindel rose from his chair, for he wanted to reassure the stranger that
he was welcome in Imladris and didn’t have to steal in order to eat his fill.
But the stranger seemed to shrink into himself the moment Glorfindel reached
him and quickly lowered his gaze. An immense sadness, whose origin Glorfindel
couldn’t explain, came over the golden-haired warrior and he lowered himself
onto his heels in front of the other Elf.
Melpomaen
remained standing in the doorway and let Glorfindel take charge, but not before
saying, “The guards discovered this Elf in the courtyard where he had acquired some
bread. He tried to run when one of the merchants approached him and the guards
went after him.” The guards, merchant, and later Melpomaen himself, had acted
out of concern and had wanted to offer the stranger their hospitality, but the
strange Elf had felt threatened and had run.
“I
am sorry,” the dark-haired Elf said softly. “I will not steal again.”
Glorfindel
frowned. Something felt wrong, though he couldn’t label the sensation. The way
the strange Elf was huddling before him made him wonder if the stranger was
hiding something beneath his cloak. “You do not have to steal food, my friend.
Imladris is known for her hospitality. You only need ask for food and lodging
and we will provide them to you.” Glorfindel directed his gaze toward Melpomaen
and said, “Please ready rooms for our guest and bring food.”
Melpomaen
nodded his head and left to carry out Glorfindel’s orders. Glorfindel smiled at
the stranger, but since the other Elf was still staring at the floor, the smile
was lost on him. “My name is Glorfindel. What is yours?” The stranger reminded
him of a doe that had run for her life and had been caught by her hunters. The
other Elf looked trapped and the panic was still there. Glorfindel clearly
sensed it.
“I
am called Erestor,” the dark-haired Elf answered, uncertain of what was
happening. When he had taken the slice of bread he had hoped to escape with it,
but then all those Elves had started to run after him. He had tried to flee,
but since he hadn’t eaten and rested for days, he had been no match for them
and they had caught him quickly.
“Erestor…”
Glorfindel pronounced the name experimentally and smiled. “You are welcome in
Imladris. All Elves are welcome here.” He was growing a bit vexed as Erestor
still refused to meet his gaze and remained staring at the floor. “What has
happened to you? You look like you have known rough times.”
Erestor
carefully kept his gaze directed to the tiled floor. He wasn’t going to risk
offending Glorfindel by meeting his gaze. But then the warrior’s question registered
with him and he swallowed hard, which was difficult since his throat felt like
sand paper. “I will not cause you any trouble,” he whispered eventually. He
felt weaker than he wanted Glorfindel to know and tried hard to remain upright.
Had it been up to him, he would have lain down and fallen asleep. He was so
tired… so tired…
Glorfindel
wondered about the glassy expression which the dark eyes were attaining and
then realized that he was dealing with a truly drained Elf. “I should not
bother you by asking you these questions when they can wait. You should rest
first.” Glorfindel was about to reach for Erestor so he could help his guest to
his feet, but his hand froze in mid-air.
A
tiny hand had emerged from beneath the torn cloak and was reaching for
Erestor’s dark hair. Small fingers, short and shaky, wrapped themselves around
the dirty strands and pulled Erestor’s head close.
Erestor’s
eyes widened as he realized that his secret had been revealed and he stared in
blind panic at Glorfindel. He had hoped to keep his daughter’s presence a
secret, but she had reached out to him because she needed him to comfort her. Now
the warrior knew what he had been hiding beneath his cloak. “Please, allow us
to leave, my Lord. We will not cause you any trouble and leave your lands.”
Glorfindel
needed a moment to compose himself. The tiny hand
belonged to an Elfling, a very young baby by the looks of it and, besides
feeling curious, he also felt protective. “Who is that with you?”
Erestor
fought hard not to panic in front of Glorfindel, but he knew he was losing the
fight. His breathing had sped up, the palms of his hands had become sweaty, and
he shook like a leaf. It never occurred to Erestor to lie to Glorfindel,
instinctively realizing the warrior would detect any lies. “This is my
daughter. I named her Êl.”
“Star? That is a beautiful name. May I see her?”
Glorfindel became increasingly aware of the fact that he should take both
father and daughter to a warm bed, but preferably *after* they had eaten some
food.
Erestor
felt like he couldn’t deny Glorfindel. The blond Elf was a Lord of this valley
and denying the warrior would do him little good. Erestor lowered his cloak a
little, just enough for Glorfindel to have a look at his daughter.
“She
is tiny!” Glorfindel exclaimed in surprise. He remembered the days when the
twins and Arwen had been so little and realized that this baby couldn’t be
older than one, maybe two weeks. “A child that young should not be traveling!
She belongs in a warm bed!”
Erestor
instantly felt guilty. “I know that. But we had no choice.” He pressed his
daughter tightly against his chest and rocked her.
A
few dark hairs already showed on the baby’s head, revealing that she was
related to Erestor, but the eyes were closed in exhausted slumber. Glorfindel
drew in a deep breath and wished Elrond were there to guide him. But the
Elf-Lord was visiting the Lord and the Lady of the Golden Wood and wasn’t
available. It was up to Glorfindel to look after any guests.
At
that moment, Melpomaen returned. He carried a tray which contained water, a
goblet filled with miruvor, bread, cheese, dried meats, and fruits. Finding
Glorfindel and the stranger kneeling on the floor made Melpomaen raise an
eyebrow. “Glorfindel, I think our guest would be more comfortable on the couch
while we wait for the servants to ready the guest room.” Melpomaen’s eyes
widened at seeing the slumbering baby that rested in the stranger’s arms.
“Please
put the tray near the couch,” Glorfindel said as he began to push himself back
to his feet. “Come…let me help you up, Erestor. You look exhausted.”
Erestor
didn’t know what to make of their friendliness and eagerness to help, but he
accepted Glorfindel’s assistance nonetheless. It wasn’t like he had much of a
choice, since he was swaying on his feet. Without the help, he would never have
made it over to the couch.
The
Elfling remained asleep and for that Erestor was grateful. She had already been
through more hardships than any baby should! With
Glorfindel’s help, Erestor seated himself on the couch. He lowered his gaze
again, cradled Êl against his chest, and waited for what would happen next. He
was well aware of the fact that the situation had spun out of his control and
that Glorfindel was in charge.
“Please
eat and drink,” Glorfindel said and offered Erestor the goblet filled with
miruvor. “This will do you good. It will strengthen you.”
Erestor
gathered his courage and looked at Glorfindel. “Please, Êl is hungry and I can
not feed her.”
“I
will bring some milk,” Melpomaen announced and quickly headed for the kitchen
to fetch nourishment for the Elfling.
“In
the meantime, please drink this.” Glorfindel was still offering Erestor the
miruvor. Erestor eventually raised a hand and accepted the drink. Glorfindel
noticed the way Erestor’s hand shook when the other Elf sipped the restorative.
Hopefully its healing qualities would strengthen Erestor. “Eat something too.”
“You
are kind,” Erestor replied softly. He wanted to eat and drink more, but his
daughter came first. He wouldn’t feel comfortable filling his belly when she
was still hungry.
Fortunately
Melpomaen returned quickly and brought along some bottled milk, which the cook
had heated. “Try this.”
Erestor
gratefully accepted the bottled milk and looked at his daughter. “Êl? Wake up.” The Elfling stirred and opened her eyes.
Glorfindel sucked in his breath as the bluest eyes he had ever seen looked at
him. He smiled encouragingly. Realizing that food was within her reach, she
reached out with her tiny hands and curled her fingers around the warm bottle.
Within seconds, she was suckling contentedly.
“Thank
you,” Erestor said, addressing both Melpomaen and Glorfindel. “It has been two
days since she last had any milk.”
“How
old is she?” Glorfindel asked.
“She
was born ten days ago.” Erestor smiled fondly at the Elfling and supported her
head while she emptied the bottle. Then his smile faded and his eyes filled
with unshed tears. “I am an unfit parent. I am not even able to provide her
with food and a warm bed.”
Seeing
how drained and anguished Erestor looked, Glorfindel thought it best not to
press for more answers. It pleased him that the Elfling was drinking, but
because Erestor was holding the bottle, the Elf couldn’t eat himself. For one
moment he considered asking Erestor permission to hold and feed her, but then
realized that he was a stranger and that Erestor wouldn’t entrust his newborn
to him. /What happened to the Elfling’s mother? And why is Erestor traveling
with such a young child?/ Although he wished to learn
the answers to those questions, Glorfindel also realized that this was not the
time to ask them.
A
servant appeared and announced that the guest room was ready. Glorfindel
thanked the servant and then told him to leave them alone. Êl had emptied her
bottle and was burped, pleased with the amount of milk she had drunk.
Glorfindel had already fallen under the Elfling’s spell. The moment the big,
blue eyes had looked at him, he had become smitten with her.
Erestor
felt relieved once his daughter had drunk her fill. “Thank you for your
kindness,” he said, addressing Glorfindel.
Glorfindel
offered Erestor the miruvor again and this time, the drained Elf emptied the
glass. “Eat some more,” Glorfindel requested and offered Erestor a slice of
bread topped with cheese. The hungry look with which Erestor’s eyes devoured
the food told Glorfindel that it must have been days since the other Elf had
eaten last.
The
Elfling, feeling warm and comfortable, snuggled up to Erestor and dozed off
again. Since she had been fed, everything was right in her little world again.
Erestor
did his best not to wolf down the food, but in the end, he succumbed to hunger
and devoured the bread and cheese. Glorfindel quickly offered him some of the
dried meats and Erestor ate those too.
“How
long has it been since you ate last?” Melpomaen asked,
stealing the question Glorfindel had wanted to ask.
“Three
days,” Erestor replied honestly. He closed his eyes and savored the sensation
of having a full belly and being warm and safe.
“I
shall escort you to your rooms where you can rest,” Melpomaen stated.
Glorfindel
felt dismayed since he had hoped to be the one doing the escorting, but he
would find a way to visit with Erestor and Êl later. “I meant the things I
said, Erestor. You are welcome here.”
“Thank
you,” Erestor whispered, batting his eyelashes involuntarily at Glorfindel. It
had been a long time since someone had treated him so kindly.
“Please
follow me.” Melpomaen opened the door and waited for Erestor to rise and follow
him, but when the raven-haired Elf tried to rise to his feet, he swayed and
Glorfindel had to steady him.
“I
will accompany you,” Glorfindel announced. “You need the support.”
“I
do not want to be a burden,” Erestor said, feeling guilty for keeping this Lord
from attending to his duties. “I am certain I will manage…” But before he could
finish the statement, he stumbled again and this time, Glorfindel resolutely
wrapped an arm around his waist.
In
this manner, the three of them made their way into the guest wing. Once they
had arrived at their destination, Melpomaen opened the door to the guest room
and stepped aside to let Glorfindel and Erestor pass.
Erestor
was already asleep on his feet. He moved automatically and placed one faltering
foot in front of the other. Glorfindel guided Erestor over to the bed and sat
his charge down. He lifted Erestor’s feet and the drained Elf curled up on the
bed, wrapping himself protectively around his daughter.
“He
is deeply asleep,” Glorfindel whispered softly since he didn’t want to wake the
exhausted Elf. “And so is the Elfling.”
“It
is most odd for an Elf to be on the road while caring for one that young.”
Melpomaen felt worried. “What caused him to run from us in the courtyard? He
seemed to expect us to be angry with him.”
Glorfindel
studied Erestor’s sleeping form thoughtfully. “I am confident that we will
receive our answers, but just not yet. He is drained and needs to sleep. Once
he has rested and eaten a decent meal we will obtain those answers.”
“I
will keep a close eye on him,” Melpomaen promised. The Advisor couldn’t help
but feel worried for Erestor and the Elfling. Something was not right and he
was determined to find out what had driven Erestor to take to the road with an
Elfling that young.
~~~
Erestor involuntarily
smiled in his sleep. He was warm, comfortable, and Êl was cuddled up against
his chest. Even in his sleep, the peaceful serenity that was Imladris reached
him and made certain he suffered no nightmares.
~~~
“Glorfindel? Melpomaen told me something most odd.” Elladan
leaned against the doorframe and studied the Captain. Glorfindel stood in front
of the window and was staring out over the valley. The warrior’s gaze was
trained on nothing in particular and he looked lost in thought. Those two
things definitely piqued Elladan’s curiosity.
Elladan’s voice shook
Glorfindel from his musings and he turned around. “What did Melpomaen tell
you?” Oh, he could surmise what the Advisor had told the half-Elf.
“That we have a guest who
thinks he needs to steal in order to be able to eat.” Elladan straightened his
arms which he had crossed in front of his chest and approached. “Since when do
Elves have to resort to stealing in Imladris?”
“I do not know this Elf’s
history,” Glorfindel answered as he updated Elladan, who was replacing Elrond while
the Elf-Lord was visiting the Golden Wood. “I only know his name.”
“Which is?” Elladan cocked
his head and waited for Glorfindel to reveal more information.
“Erestor.” Glorfindel seated himself behind his desk and
sighed. “And he is not alone.”
Elladan nodded. “Melpomaen
told me that he has an Elfling with him.”
“Her name is Êl and she is
only ten days old. Elladan, she is tiny and fragile.”
“You assigned one of the
guest rooms to Erestor?” Elladan leaned against Glorfindel’s massive desk and
studied his former mentor.
“Aye, I did. I also plan
on visiting with him in the morning.” Glorfindel gave Elladan a thoughtful
look. “He will need clothes since the ones he wears now are threadbare.”
“I will see to it that he receives
them.” Elladan moistened his lips and took his time thinking everything over.
“He is an Elf… So why does he think he needs to steal in order to survive?
Imladris welcomes all Elves and we are well-known for our hospitality.”
Glorfindel shrugged his
shoulders once. “I can only guess…”
“Then guess,” Elladan
requested and nodded his head.
“We do not know where he hails
from. Maybe in the parts Erestor has lived, Imladris is not that well-known.”
Glorfindel’s brow knitted. “He looks worn down, Elladan. We do not know what
kind of life he led before he came here, but I surmise it must have been a hard
one.”
Elladan agreed with
everything Glorfindel had said. “We will give him the time to rest and recover,
but once he feels stronger, we will question him.”
“Might I make a
suggestion?”
Elladan nodded. “Please
do.”
“Let Melpomaen and me
attend to him. I know you are curious, Elladan, and that you would like to meet
with him, but I advice against that. He is easily frightened and seeing another
new face might make him uncooperative.”
Elladan nodded again. “I
will grant you this, Glorfindel, but keep me informed. I want to know about
your findings.”
Glorfindel smiled and
nodded. “I will update you.” He was grateful that Elladan understood the
situation and wouldn’t swamp Erestor. What the fatigued Elf needed right now was
peace and quiet.
~~~
The next morning, Erestor
awoke to knocking on the door. He needed a moment to recognize his surroundings,
since the rooms were unknown to him, but then he remembered Melpomaen and
Glorfindel walking him there. His first look was for his daughter and she was
smiling at him when their gazes met. It was good to see her smiling and contented.
“Erestor? Are you awake yet?”
Erestor recognized
Melpomaen’s voice and pushed himself to an upright position. Êl, who was also
very much awake by now, tried to crawl onto his lap, but Erestor kept her
cradled against his chest. Ever since her birth they had been together. Erestor
had not allowed his tormentor to separate him from his daughter. “I am awake,”
he replied as he wondered why the other Elf was visiting with him so early in
the morning.
“May I enter?” Melpomaen
felt it wise to take things slowly since he didn’t know that much about their
guest. All he knew was that Erestor expected the worst.
“Aye, you may enter.”
Erestor quickly wrapped a blanket around his form. Êl, sensing Erestor’s
unease, pressed even tighter against him. Her tiny hands clawed at the thin
fabric of his shirt and refused to let go.
Melpomaen entered carrying
another tray and kicked the door shut behind him. Since Erestor was still in bed,
he carried the tray over to his guest and placed it on the mattress. “I hope
you and the little one are hungry.” Once the cook knew there was an Elfling to
take care of, she had added more bottled milk and some sweet treats in case the
baby was hungry. Êl had already spied the bottled milk and her hands released
Erestor’s shirt as they tried to take hold of the bottle, cooing to express her
pleasure.
Hearing her delighted sounds,
Erestor chuckled. “Here…let me help.” He took hold of the bottle and fed the
milk to her. He was delighted to find that she was hungry again and was devouring
the milk with enthusiasm. Right after she had been born, he had been worried
and even afraid that she wouldn’t survive, but she was developing a healthy
appetite and Erestor grew more certain that she would prosper there in
Imladris.
“You should eat and drink
something as well, Erestor.” Melpomaen handed Erestor a cup of herbal tea and
gestured for the other Elf to sip.
Erestor managed to do so while
bottle-feeding his daughter with his right hand and sipping the tea using his
left. Strands of dirty hair had tumbled in front of his face and he peeked through
them at Melpomaen. His instincts told him that he had nothing to fear.
Melpomaen was sincere in his desire to help and that knowledge reassured him.
“The Elves here are very kind.”
“It is the least we can do
for someone of our kin in need.” Melpomaen placed the now empty cup back on the
tray and handed Erestor a thick slice of sweet cake. “Eat,” he ordered while
keeping a close eye on the Elfling, who was smiling and suckling her milk. “It
has been a great many years since we had the pleasure of looking after an
Elfling. The lady Arwen was the last Elfling Imladris saw and she came of age
many decades ago.” That reminded Melpomaen: Elrond and Celebrían had decided
against giving away their daughter’s clothes and toys and would still be stored
away in one of the spare rooms. He would look for them later.
Êl finished her milk and
Erestor helped her burp. Once she had done so, her eyes misted over with
fatigue and she dozed off again. Melpomaen caught the worried look which
Erestor directed at the Elfling and then said, “That is all they do at this
age. They eat and sleep.”
Erestor blushed. “I have
no experience with raising Elflings. I do not know what to do.”
Melpomaen smiled and
waited for Erestor to meet his gaze a moment later. “It seems to me that you
are doing well. You love her and that is all that matters.”
Erestor carefully placed
his daughter back in the nest of blankets he had created during the night. He
tucked her in and watched her sleep. “I am a sorry excuse for a parent.”
Melpomaen decided not to
give in to Erestor’s self-pity. “There is an adjourning bathroom. Maybe you
would like to bathe? And clean the little one up as well?”
A bath sounded divine to
Erestor, but there was one little problem. Once he was clean he would have to
slip into his sodden clothes again. “I will bathe her.” And after bathing her,
he could wrap her up in warm blankets. Another knock resounded on the door and startled
him, causing him to look at Melpomaen.
“That would be Glorfindel.
He should have found some clothing for you.” Melpomaen rose from the bed and
opened the door, letting Glorfindel in.
Glorfindel gave Erestor a
smile and strode towards the bed. The other Elf looked better, a bit more
rested and the eyes weren’t so haunted any more. “These robes should fit.” They
were Elrond’s, but Glorfindel was certain that the Elf-Lord wouldn’t mind lending
them to Erestor. “I will look for clothes for the little one later.”
“Let me do that. I
remembered where they stored Arwen’s belongings.” Eager to help, Melpomaen
walked over toward the doorway. But before he left, he looked over his shoulder
and added, “Make sure he eats!”
Glorfindel draped the
clothes over the chair and nodded. “I will.” Once Melpomaen had closed the
door, Glorfindel walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge. Looking
closer, he discovered that Êl was still soundly asleep. A glance at the empty
milk bottle told him that she had ate her fill. But the food on the tray had
been barely touched. “Is the food not to your liking?”
Erestor quickly shook his
head. “This is all a bit overwhelming.”
Glorfindel forsook his
prior intention to question Erestor and decided to wait a little longer. “You
should eat, Erestor. I will fill up the bath tub in the meantime.”
Erestor watched Glorfindel
walk into the bathroom and allowed for a shy smile to break through. When he
had fled his former ‘home’, he hadn’t known where to head. He had simply run
and prayed that he would encounter someone who would take pity on him. Now it
seemed he had found a safe haven. Êl was the most precious person in his life
and he would die for her. While checking on his daughter, he ate more of the
cake, using his fingers instead of the utensils.
“Are you ready for your
bath?” Glorfindel frowned as he found Erestor staring at the baby in
distraught. Erestor grew shy and hoped Glorfindel didn’t plan on staying with
him during his bath. Sensing Erestor’s unease, Glorfindel excused himself. If
Erestor needed privacy, the warrior would give it to him. “I will return
shortly. Enjoy your bath, Erestor.” Glorfindel smiled just before closing the
door behind him on his way out.
“Thank you,” Erestor
whispered in gratitude that Glorfindel was considerate enough to award him some
privacy.
“You are welcome,”
Glorfindel mumbled as he closed the door and a smile graced his noble features.
He was already looking forward to returning to Erestor and the Elfling and
spending time with them, playing with the Elfling while he became closer to
Erestor.
~~~
Erestor woke Êl up and
stared into her blue eyes. Most Elflings were born with blue eyes, but it was
one trait which he hoped would change in time. Her eye color reminded him of the
person who had caused him so much pain. “But do not worry. I will never blame
you for what *he* did. I love you. You are my flesh and blood.” Êl didn’t
understand any of the words, but she sensed the emotions Erestor was going through
and reached for him with her tiny hands.
Erestor lifted her and
cradled her against his chest before he placed his feet onto the floor and
slowly rose from the bed. He still had trouble accepting that he was safe and
welcome there, but he was going to savor the luxury for as long as it would
last.
Once inside the bathroom, he
removed his worn clothes. He sat down in the bath tub and then slowly lowered
his daughter into the warm water as well. Êl laughed in pleasure and tried to
swim. His daughter’s antics made Erestor smile and he steadied her as she splashed
him. He caught her and steadied her against him before he started to clean her
up. Glorfindel was right: she was so tiny that it was amazing that this horrid
trip hadn’t done more damage. But she was strong, a true survivor. Erestor knew
that as well. “Come what may, we will survive.”
Êl let Erestor clean her
up as she enjoyed floating in the water and chirped exultantly when bubbles
formed on the surface of the water. What Erestor didn’t know was that their
laughter was audible in the corridor and Melpomaen and Glorfindel could hear
them splashing and frolicking about.
“They sound like they are
having fun,” Melpomaen remarked, rather smug.
Glorfindel agreed, but
remained sober. “He is afraid, Melpomaen. Not of us, but he *is* afraid of
something, maybe someone. I sense his fear.”
“That does not surprise
me, considering the way he acted yesterday when he tried to steal that slice of
bread.” Melpomaen considered their situation. “He seems to like you,
Glorfindel. Maybe you should try to find out what happened to him.”
Glorfindel couldn’t agree
more. “I will, my friend, and succeed.”
~~~
The fabric felt soft and
luxurious against his skin and Erestor’s fingers moved over his new shirt and leggings
as if to convince himself that he was really wearing them. He had wrapped Êl in
warm blankets and the Elfling looked happy and pleased. Her skin had attained a
healthy rosy hue and her eyes sparkled with mirth. Although Erestor could never
forget the hard life he had led until he had reached Imladris, he knew he could
never put any of the blame on his daughter. Êl was an innocent and much like
him in many ways.
“I apologize, Erestor. I
knocked, but it seems you did not hear.” Glorfindel closed the door behind him
and headed for the bed where Erestor was sitting and running his hands over the
fabric of his new clothes. He looked pleased, Glorfindel noted. “These once
belonged to Arwen, but I believe she will not mind Êl wearing them. This dress
should fit.” He had even brought miniature socks and shoes.
Erestor looked up in
surprise, but not from being startled. “Thank you,” he said as he accepted the
goods into his arms. The dress was made of the finest silk and would fit his
daughter, he was certain of that. His hands remained idle on his lap for a
moment while still clutching his daughter’s new clothes before looking at
Glorfindel and asking, “Why are you so nice to us? We are strangers! You do not
know anything about us!” After what he had been through it was hard to
understand why kindness would be given without some sort of hidden agenda and
he began to worry about the price he might have to pay for their hospitality.
Glorfindel pulled up a
chair and straddled it. “I know enough, Erestor. I know that you belong to my
kin and that you are in need. What else do I need to know?” Glorfindel realized
his chance however and added, “If you want to tell me how you and your daughter
found yourselves in this situation, you have found a listening ear with me.”
Erestor wasn’t certain he
should confide his secrets to Glorfindel. What if hearing his tale would change
Glorfindel’s opinion of him? Would the warrior treat him differently? But, on
the other hand, he knew that he owed these Elves the truth, especially since it
was possible that he was endangering them by staying there. “I will tell you,”
Erestor said eventually.
“And I will listen,”
Glorfindel replied. “But not before you drink more miruvor.” Erestor had grown
pale and that fact worried Glorfindel. He retrieved a glass and filled it with
the restorative. It would strengthen the nervous Elf.
Erestor sipped as he let
his hair fall in front of his face before drawing in a deep breath. “I ran from
my master.”
Glorfindel’s eyes widened.
Had he misunderstood? “Your master?”
Erestor nodded and sipped
again. His facial features remained hidden behind his long hair. “My life
started five years ago. Everything before that is a blank.”
Glorfindel reached for the
miruvor himself and emptied a glass in one go. “Say again?”
“I know what has happened
these last five years, but nothing before that. I found myself in a human
village, hungry, dirty, and chased after. They caught me and brought me before
their Lord and Master. I was ‘fortunate’ enough to draw his attention. If I had
not, those humans would have killed me right there and then.”
Glorfindel didn’t like
what he was hearing, but he had no choice. He had asked to be told. “What
happened next?”
Erestor laughed, but it
was mirthless and bitter laughter that woke the Elfling. Erestor immediately
took her into his arms and rocked her. “Caldarn, their master, took a liking to
me and decided I should warm his bed. That first time was horrific and I felt
sick after he had taken his pleasure from me, but after a while I became used
to it. It was the only way to survive and so I allowed it. Had he cast me out
of his bed, the villagers would have hung me.”
Glorfindel now felt
physically ill for what the other Elf had gone through. “You said you lived
with them for five years?”
Erestor nodded his head
and gave his daughter his thumb to suckle on. She took it with great enthusiasm
and suckled the digit. “I did. In the end, I…” Erestor wavered, but then
realized he had to tell Glorfindel the whole truth if he wanted to plead with
the warrior for protection. There was a chance that Caldarn would come for him
and he would need Glorfindel to help him. “A year ago, something happened. I
suddenly was with child.”
Glorfindel’s eyes almost
bulged from their sockets. “What?”
Erestor flinched and
quickly lowered his gaze so he was staring at the mattress. “I do not know how
it happened. It just did.”
Glorfindel blinked several
times and forced himself to remain calm. “It is not unheard of, though rare,
for a male Elf to conceive and give birth.” So Erestor wasn’t the Elfling’s
father, but her mother! Glorfindel’s head reeled with this knowledge.
“My master was pleased and
hoped I would give him a son. He kept me locked up in his bedroom and after the
human healer had removed the child from my body, Caldarn came to gloat. But he
did not gloat for long.” At that, Erestor flinched fiercely. “He was angry when
he realized I had given birth to a girl. He had set his mind on having a son,
not a daughter. He raged, raved, and told me that I was a failure. But I did
not care, not really, for I held my daughter in my arms. And although she had
inherited his eyes, she has a gentle disposition and I loved her from the
moment I first held her in my arms.”
Glorfindel’s gaze briefly shifted
from Erestor’s hunched form to the sleeping Elfling. Studying her, he realized
that most of her facial features resembled Erestor. She was clearly his child,
only the eyes…only the eyes were different. “What happened next?” Glorfindel was
eager to learn the rest of Erestor’s history.
“Caldarn was furious and
announced that he would cast out the child. That he would leave it in the
forest to die and I could not allow for that to happen. I waited for the right
opportunity to come along and we ran. I did not have a plan, I merely ran.”
Erestor reached for his daughter and settled her in his arms. Êl didn’t wake up,
but merely snuggled up to him. “I ran eleven days ago. The same day she was
born. I could not wait. Too great was the risk that he would take her away from
me and abandon her.”
That explained why Erestor
was so weak, so exhausted, Glorfindel thought. The other Elf should have been
resting after giving birth, but instead, Erestor had been forced to save his
daughter’s life. “You are safe here, I promise you that.” Glorfindel acted on
instinct and placed a hand on Erestor’s arm. He smiled at the distressed Elf
and tried to radiate reassurance.
Erestor felt courageous
enough to look at Glorfindel and his brown eyes searched the warrior’s blue ones.
“But what if Caldarn is still searching for me and will find me? I belong to
him. He is my master.”
Glorfindel moistened his
lips and gently squeezed Erestor’s arm. “No Elf belongs to a Man, Erestor. You
have no master. You are your own master and should he come for you, we will
tell him that and then I will personally make certain that he leaves Imladris –
without you. This is your new home, if you wish for it.”
Erestor’s eyes had filled
with tears. “That is my greatest desire: to live here, among all these kind
Elves and to care for my daughter. Do you really think I will be allowed to do
so?”
“You have my word.” Elrond
would return in a few days and Glorfindel was certain that the half-Elf would
welcome Erestor with open arms. “Erestor,” he started, wanting to know one more
thing for sure. “You do not know who you are? Where you lived?”
Erestor nodded his head.
“But I do know my name.” Glorfindel gave Erestor a questioning look and Erestor
explained. “I carried a letter with me the day they found me. Most of the
writing had faded due to rain, but I could still read the name on the envelope
and it said Erestor. The moment I read that name, I knew it was mine.”
The name in itself told
Glorfindel little. He had never heard it before, but maybe Elrond had. The way
Erestor carried himself told him that the other Elf had enjoyed a good
education and upbringing. But at that moment, Erestor yawned and his eyes
became foggy.
“I am sorry, but I am
still tired, it seems.” His body had had little chance to rest since he had
given birth and now demanded for it. But he couldn’t give into sleep just yet.
“Is there a way I can repay you for your kindness? I work hard, maybe I can
help out in the kitchens?”
Glorfindel shook his head
fiercely. “Nay, Erestor. I want you to sleep for now. You need to rest.” He
smiled and then added, “Your daughter needs you with her, not working off a
non-existing debt. You are among your kin.” Acting instinctively, Glorfindel
raised a hand and brushed the strands of hair that obscured Erestor’s features
behind his ear. “You have come home, my friend.”
Erestor’s eyes filled with
tears and a few of them made it down his cheeks. “I can not stop thanking you,”
he whispered with a smile on his face.
“You have known many
hardships and great pain these last five years. Let me assure you that your
life has changed. Should Caldarn come for you, I will take care of the problem.”
Erestor wanted to thank
Glorfindel again, but instead settled for smiling warmly at the golden-haired
Elf. He liked Glorfindel and, considering he had only known the other Elf for
two days, that was quite an achievement. He had learned to distrust during
these last five years. Erestor had also noticed the way Glorfindel looked at
the Elfling and realized that the warrior really liked her. Making the next
offer was hard on him, but since he felt he could trust Glorfindel, he gathered
his courage and said, “Would you like to hold her?” He hoped he hadn’t misread
Glorfindel’s expression.
Glorfindel’s whole face
lit up at hearing Erestor offering. “Aye, I would like to hold her. May I? I
will be gentle and I have some experience handling ones so tiny. I used to look
after the twins and Arwen when they were little. I know what to do.”
Glorfindel’s eagerness
made Erestor smile and he gently placed Êl into the warrior’s arms. “You may
hold her.” He had judged Glorfindel correctly then. The golden-haired Elf liked
Elflings.
Glorfindel’s heart almost
burst with happiness when the tiny bundle in his arms turned toward him and hid
her small hands in the fabric of his shirt. “She is lovely.” At hearing his
voice, her eyes opened and she smiled at him. One hand released the fabric she
had grabbed hold of and reached for a lock of his golden hair. She cooed,
twined the long strand around her fingers, and stared at it. “She is adorable,”
Glorfindel added as he rocked her lightly in his arms. Although he would never
speak the words aloud, Arwen had been his favorite Elfling and he had loved
holding and playing with her best.
Erestor lowered himself
back onto the bed and curled up, pulling the blanket closer. He watched
Glorfindel make silly faces at his daughter before cooing and chirping along
with Êl. It was the first time in eleven days that he felt he could give into
his fatigue, for he knew his daughter was in safe hands.
“Look what we have here!”
Glorfindel showed Arwen’s former dress to the small Elfling and she seemed to
love the way the fabric moved through her fingers. Glorfindel helped her slip
into the garment and then straightened out the fabric. She seemed content and
snuggled up to him. Glorfindel smiled radiantly and went to hand her back to
Erestor, but then realized that the raven-haired Elf was sound asleep. “Aye,
sleep,” he whispered. “You must be exhausted.” Maybe he should ask Elladan to
check on Erestor. He would have preferred for Elrond to do so, but the Elf-Lord
wasn’t present and Elrond *had* trained Elladan well. The twin would be able to
take care of his newest patient.
~~~
Erestor slept for most of
the day and started to wake up during sunset. He blinked several times and then
grew alarmed when he realized his daughter wasn’t in his arms. His first
thought was that Caldarn had come for her, but then he caught sight of
Glorfindel and Êl. The two of them were playing in front of the fireplace and
Glorfindel’s antics made Êl giggle and smile. It was good to see her happy.
There had been a time when he had feared for her life.
“Good, you are awake.”
The new voice brought goose
pimples to his flesh, for it was unknown to Erestor. “I am Elladan, a healer.
Glorfindel asked me to examine you.” Elladan carefully observed Erestor’s
reaction to his unexpected presence and sensed the fear that took hold of the
raven-haired Elf. He’d had ample time to study Erestor in his sleep and agreed
with Glorfindel that this handsome Elf was dead exhausted. He rose from the
chair he had been sitting on and advanced on the bed. Earlier, he had joined
Glorfindel and Êl in their play, but the Elfling definitely preferred to play
with Glorfindel and in the end, Elladan had instead sat back and enjoyed
watching this seasoned and respected Captain play with the Elfling.
“I do not need to be
examined,” Erestor whispered and pulled the blanket even closer. He didn’t know
Elladan, didn’t know the Elf’s intentions, and wasn’t going to allow him close.
Acting like he was dealing
with a frightened child, Elladan seated himself at some distance on the bed and
smiled warmly at Erestor. “Glorfindel told me that you had surgery only eleven
days ago? The day your daughter was born? He also told me that you have been on
your feet ever since. Is that true?” Elladan carefully schooled his voice so it
sounded caring and non-judgmental. The last thing he wanted was for Erestor to
look upon him as the enemy.
“That is true,” Erestor
mumbled. With one eye, he watched Elladan and with the other he kept track of
what his daughter was doing.
Elladan still kept his
distance, but continued to question Erestor in a non-threatening way. “Have you
looked after the wound? Has it healed? Or has it started to bleed again?” Erestor
closed his eyes and wished he had the strength to run out of the room to escape
Elladan’s questions. “I am only here to help,” Elladan said and inched a bit
closer. “I brought warm water, healing herbs, and bandages in case we need
them. Will you allow me to examine you?” He could be wrong, but in the way
Erestor was looking at him, he thought he saw permission in the fatigued eyes.
“This does not have to take long.”
“I do not want Êl present
when you do.” Erestor didn’t know how the Elfling would react to seeing him in
pain.
Glorfindel had heard
Erestor’s last remark and said, “Do not worry. I will keep her distracted.” His
gaze met Erestor’s and he saw uncertainty there. “Let Elladan tend to you. Êl
needs you healthy and strong. If you are hurting, let Elladan take the pain
away.”
Realizing he had lost,
Erestor nodded once. “You may proceed.”
Like Glorfindel before,
Elladan was struck by the thought that this was no ordinary Elf. When Erestor
had spoken just now, he had done so with authority in his voice. This was an
Elf who had once been used to giving orders and being obeyed. This realization
only deepened the mystery that surrounded Erestor. Glorfindel stayed true to
his word and distracted the Elfling while Elladan peeled off the blanket from
Erestor’s form. “I have to unbutton your shirt,” Elladan said, keeping Erestor
informed of what he was going to do next. Erestor nodded and turned his head so
he could watch Glorfindel and Êl play. That way, he could distract and distance
himself from Elladan’s probing fingers which glided over his abdomen.
Elladan’s features
contorted: Erestor’s wound was far from healed and needed to be cleaned and
bandaged. “This might hurt,” Elladan warned his patient.
“I will manage,” Erestor whispered
from between clenched teeth. He knew he had made a mistake when he had forced
his body to continue, even when it was telling him to rest, but his daughter’s
safety had come first. Watching her play with Glorfindel, Erestor knew he had
made the right decision. He would pay whatever price his body would demand now.
Elladan used the warm
water, healing herbs, and a soft wash cloth to clean the wound. When Caldarn’s
healer had delivered the child, he hadn’t worked hygienically and the wound had
not healed as it should have. Instead of using a sharp and disinfected knife,
the blade must have been dirty and jagged. Elladan’s jaw set firmly, realizing
the pain Erestor must have been in during the surgery.
Erestor wasn’t in that
much pain currently though. Elladan’s touch was soft and the healer apparently
knew what he was doing, causing him as little discomfort as possible.
Glorfindel looked up from playing with Êl and smiled warmly at him, giving
Erestor the strength he needed to undergo Elladan’s ministrations.
“I need you to sit up for
a moment so I can bandage the wound.” Elladan realized that he would also need
an extra pair of hands and, since Glorfindel was busy distracting Êl, he needed Melpomaen to help him. “Just
a moment.” He covered Erestor up with a warm blanket and then left the
room to fetch Melpomaen, who had stayed close. Melpomaen was waiting in the
corridor just in case they would need him.
“Good evening, Erestor,”
Melpomaen said as he entered the room. “And good evening to you, little
princess,” he added as he smiled at the Elfling. Êl seemed to like being called
that and waved her hands at him. Melpomaen made a little detour to hug the
Elfling and press a kiss onto her brow. “I will be right back and then we will
play. My, that dress does look good on you!”
Êl was still too young to
understand what this gentle Elf was telling her, but she heard his kind voice
and saw the warm expression in his eyes and decided she liked him! She was a bit
disappointed when the adult left again, but Glorfindel was already distracting
her by tickling her sides.
“Help me sit him upright.”
Elladan gestured for Melpomaen to seat himself on the other side of the bed and
help Erestor to sit upright. Once he had managed to do that, Melpomaen took
over and pulled Erestor close so the injured Elf could lean against him for
support. Erestor allowed them to manhandle them. The treatment was wearing him
down and he wanted nothing more than to close his eyes and go back to sleep
again.
Elladan packed bundles of
healing herbs against the wound and then bandaged the affected area. Once he
was done, Melpomaen and Elladan lowered Erestor back onto the bed again and the
half-Elf gave his patient a stern look. “I want you to stay in bed for at least
three more days, Erestor. I will allow you to walk to the bathroom, but that is
it!” Erestor flinched. He had received many orders during the last five years
and he had learned to obey. Elladan regretted scaring his patient. “I did not
mean it like that, Erestor. I spoke out of concern. You need to rest so your
body can heal. You have demanded too much from your body these last few days
when you should have been sleeping instead.”
Elladan’s words took away
some of the sting Erestor had felt and he peeked at the healer. There was
something odd about Elladan, but Erestor couldn’t quite label the feeling.
Seeing Erestor’s questioning look, Elladan smiled and nodded. “I am half-Elven.
That is what strikes you as odd.”
“Just like my daughter,” escaped
Erestor. “She is a half-Elf too.” In a way, that saddened him, but looking at
Elladan now, he wondered if he hadn’t overreacted at first. Elladan looked
happy, accomplished, and like a true Elf.
Elladan pretended to be
surprised, though in reality he wasn’t since Glorfindel had informed him of
Erestor’s grueling history. “She will be granted her choice when her time is
right.” Since Erestor was looking at him expectantly, Elladan added, “My twin
and I made our choices a few years ago. We decided to belong to the Firstborn.
We are Elves now.”
Erestor felt relieved at
hearing that. “Do you think Êl will be granted the same choice when she is old
enough?” He wasn’t quite sure of that, considering the way she had been
conceived. Maybe the Valar wouldn’t grant her the same privilege as the twins
had received.
“I am certain of it,”
Elladan said as he tucked the blanket around Erestor’s form again. He had
positioned Erestor in such a way that he could look at Glorfindel and Êl, who
were still playing. “She is an innocent.”
“I can only hope the Valar
will see her the same way you do.” Erestor drew in a deep breath and
surrendered to his fatigue. Knowing his daughter was in the best of hands, he
allowed himself to drift off into sleep.
~~~
The next time Erestor woke
again it was the middle of the night and his daughter was tucked away in his
arms, sleeping soundly. Glorfindel was right: she looked adorable in her new
dress and her hair was beginning to grow. Short, soft, raven hair was beginning
to cover her head.
“Would you like to drink
something?” Glorfindel moved his chair closer to the bed without making any
sound since he didn’t want to wake the sleeping Elfling. He could tell by
studying Erestor’s expression that his charge was surprised to still find him
there. The truth was that Elladan, Melpomaen, and Glorfindel had been taking
turns to ensure that Erestor was never alone during his recovery. “Miruvor or herbal tea? Which do you prefer?”
Erestor felt dazed. He had
never been pampered before, well, not as long as he could remember. “I would
like some tea, please.” He shifted his daughter in his arms and acquired a more
comfortable position by propping himself up against his pillows. That way, he
could easily sip his tea. Glorfindel handed Erestor the tea cup and smiled at
him. Erestor couldn’t help but wonder about the golden-haired Elf’s eagerness
to look after him. “I must be keeping you from your work.”
Glorfindel shrugged.
“Between Elladan, Melpomaen, and me, we manage. Everything is quiet right now.”
Erestor nodded his head
once and then sipped. That meant that Caldarn wasn’t looking for him yet. “Do
you think I will be allowed to stay and raise my daughter here?”
“I am certain of it.
Elrond Half-Elven, who rules this valley, will welcome you with open arms.”
Erestor memorized every
bit of information that Glorfindel fed him. “If he is Lord here, then what is
your position?”
Glorfindel continued to
smile and replied, “I am Captain of Arms. I am in charge of all things military.”
Realizing Erestor didn’t know that much about Elladan and Melpomaen either, he further
explained, “Melpomaen is Elrond’s Chief Advisor and will also advise Elrond
that you are to make your home in Imladris. Elladan is Elrond’s son and heir.
He wants you to stay as well. As you can see, you have some formidable
champions.”
Erestor stored this
information away for later. “I am grateful to have such champions. I am afraid
my daughter will need them.”
“Knowing Elrond the way I
do, you will find another champion in him. And then there is the rest of his
family, Elladan’s twin Elrohir and their sister, Arwen. Elrohir and Arwen
accompanied their father on his visit to the Golden Wood, but I expect them
back in the next few days.” This was a lot of information to take in for
Erestor and Glorfindel didn’t expect the recovering Elf to remember everything the
next day. “Sip your tea and then go back to sleep.”
Erestor did as he was told
and handed Glorfindel the now empty cup. “You like Êl, do you not?”
A bit puzzled as to why
Erestor was asking this question, Glorfindel nodded his head. “I do. She has
already found a way into my heart.”
“That is good.” Erestor
wavered for what he was about ask was impertinent and he couldn’t be sure how
Glorfindel would react to his request, but he hoped he would receive a positive
response. “Glorfindel, if anything ever happens to me, and my daughter is left
alone, will you look out for her? Will you take her in and raise her like she
was your own flesh and blood?”
Glorfindel sucked in his
breath. This was a most serious request and Erestor was asking him for a
reason. “But nothing will happen to you!”
“But if something bad
should happen to me, will you care for her? She needs a champion.” Erestor
wasn’t giving up just yet since he knew Glorfindel cared for the Elfling.
Glorfindel made his
decision right then and there, replying, “She will always have a champion in
me, Erestor. I will care for her.”
Feeling relieved, Erestor
smiled at Glorfindel. “You must understand. I am still worried that Caldarn
will come for me.”
“For
you? Not for her?” Glorfindel
frowned deeply.
“He does not want her, but
he still wants me. He wants a male heir and not a daughter. I am afraid he will
turn up in Imladris and take me back with him.” And Erestor wasn’t sure he
would survive being separated from his child. Well, maybe he would be able to
cope if he knew her in safe hands with Glorfindel.
“No one will take you away
from here against your will.” Glorfindel stated in determination, showing he
would rather risk a fight than lose Erestor to the Man again. “You belong in
Imladris now.”
“Thank you,” Erestor
mumbled. “Thank you for those kind words.” His hand, which had formerly held
the tea cup, now reached for Glorfindel’s, but the warrior’s hand was out of
his reach and Erestor began to pull back, unwilling to embarrass either one of
them with his clingy behavior.
But Glorfindel stopped
Erestor short by curling his fingers around those of the injured Elf. “You are
here to stay, I promise. And no one will ever hurt you again.” The smile that
the raven-haired Elf gave him touched his heart and Glorfindel finally realized
the truth: he wasn’t just smitten with Êl, but with Erestor as well. He was
falling in love with both of them. Glorfindel had always wanted a little family
to call his own, but that wasn’t the way of the warrior. But now Erestor and Êl
had crossed his path and he liked them both.
~~~
During the next few days,
Erestor began to recover. He tried a few times to leave his bed other than to
go to the bathroom, but whenever he did, either Elladan, Melpomaen, or
Glorfindel would send him straight back to his bed. They fed him delicacies,
lots of miruvor and herbal tea, and took great care he wasn’t disturbed.
Erestor took great delight in watching his daughter play with his ‘minders’ and
often laughed about the antics they pulled.
For the first time in five
years Erestor felt happy and at peace and, since he had time to think his
situation over, he realized that he wanted to know what had happened to him to
make him forget his past life. Who was he? Where had he lived? Was his family
still alive? His father and his mother? Did he have
any siblings? But his memory refused to cooperate and he found nothing but a
gaping hole whenever he tried to remember back.
The fact that Erestor was
growing depressed and quiet worried Elladan, Glorfindel, and Melpomaen and they
was decided that it should be the Captain who should investigate Erestor’s
darkening mood and find out what was wrong.
~~~
Glorfindel joined Erestor
in nursing a cup of herbal tea and watched Êl attempt to play with the dolls
which Melpomaen had retrieved from the storage area the other day. The Elfling
had grown strong during the last few days and looked healthy and happy. Her
blue eyes sparkled with life and energy and Glorfindel figured she would start
pulling mischief in due time. She was a confident and eager little Elfling, impatient
to start exploring the world that lay beyond the confines of their room. “She
is doing well,” Glorfindel remarked in an effort to start conversation.
Erestor had been staring
at his daughter as well and, although he felt blessed that she was doing well,
he also felt melancholy because he still couldn’t remember who he was and where
he came from. He was an intelligent Elf however and knew why Glorfindel had
pulled up his chair to the bed and settled down: for a long talk. Like before,
he never considered lying and spoke honestly when he addressed the
golden-haired Elf. “I know why you are hovering close, but you do not have to
worry.”
Glorfindel arched an
eyebrow elegantly. “And why is that?” He moved closer and gathered one of
Erestor’s trembling hands in his. “Erestor, the three of us worry for you...Elladan,
Melpomaen and I. We have seen you grow quiet and depressed these last few days
and we wonder why. I have a suspicion but I would rather you told me.”
“I did not have time to
think about my situation these last few years, but since I have come here, and
the three of you have started to take such good care of me, I have been
wondering who I am and where I hail from. What happened to me that caused me to
lose my memory?”
“You once mentioned
carrying a letter. Do you still have it?” The letter might just be the clue
Glorfindel needed to solve the mystery, but seeing Erestor shake his head, his
heart missed a beat. This would complicate matters!
“I no longer had it when I
woke up in Caldarn’s rooms. I do not know what happened to it.”
“Maybe you were a
messenger, sent to deliver this letter? Do you remember where you were headed?”
“I asked myself that
question many times, Glorfindel, and also where I came
from, but I do not remember a single thing!” Erestor’s voice rose in his
frustration, startling Êl as she lay among her dolls. Erestor forced a smile
onto his face and cooed soothingly, reassuring her.
Glorfindel decided to take
a risk and said, “I talked to Elladan and Melpomaen and, although we do not
know who you are, we feel strongly that you are no ordinary Elf.” The statement
earned Glorfindel Erestor’s attention and the dark eyes focused on him with
hope. “We feel that you used to be in charge and are also accustomed to being
obeyed. You must have held a position of great importance once.”
Glorfindel’s statement
confused Erestor. “And how did you reach that conclusion? For the last five
years I was trained to carry out orders, not give them.”
“It is hard to say,”
Glorfindel remarked. “It is little things we can not really put our finger on.”
Glorfindel leaned back into the comfort of his chair and sipped his tea. It was
time to try a different approach. “Thranduil reigns in the
But Erestor shook his
head. “I do not think so.”
“How
about the Lady Galadriel who resides in the Golden Wood?” Glorfindel thought he saw a spark of recognition
in Erestor’s eyes and continued, “Or Lord Celeborn?”
Erestor’s breathing sped
up at hearing the name of the Lord of the Golden Wood. A memory was trying to
break through the barrier, but failed in making it to the surface. “Celeborn,”
Erestor repeated the name, tasting it. “I know that name.” Excited, he turned big
eyes to Glorfindel and then nodded repeatedly. “I know that name!”
“Good, we will start our
search there. I will send a messenger to the Golden Wood. Maybe Celeborn knows
you.” It occurred to Glorfindel that Erestor might not be the other Elf’s
correct name, since Erestor had adopted the name after losing his memories.
Êl at this time decided
that she had done enough lying about by herself and
decided that she wanted her mother: Erestor. She sniffled and waved her legs as
she whimpered, seeking her favorite babysitter’s, Glorfindel, attention. Glorfindel
chuckled and went over to lift her, and then placed her on the bed beside
Erestor. Learning that Erestor was the Elfling’s mother and not her father had
stunned him, but he had accepted it. Although occasionally he did wonder how
such a thing was possible in the first place. Was Erestor’s anatomy somehow
different? Finding the answer to that question would mean putting a very
intimate question to Erestor and Glorfindel didn’t feel the time was right to
do so.
Êl tried to lift her head
and succeeded in holding herself up for a bit before falling forward once more.
Erestor picked her up and smiled warmly at her. “You are still a bit too young
to try that,” Erestor said fondly. His daughter lay comfortably in his arms and
she pressed herself tightly against his chest.
“But she should be able to
hold her head up in a few days. Her health has much improved and she has grown
strong.” Glorfindel gave Erestor and Êl an adoring look. He felt proud of both
of them!
~~~
“I will allow you to leave
your bed,” Elladan declared with a smile as he saw Erestor’s pleased look. “I
suggest short walks for now.” Elladan smiled at Êl, whose little fingers were playing
with the bundles of healing herbs he had brought. “Are you interested in the
way of the healer, little one?” Êl looked at Elladan with her big, blue eyes
and then reached for one of Elladan’s braids. “Ouch!” Elladan’s features
briefly contorted. “You are much too strong to be a lady Elf.” Êl watched him
gravely and then raised her fist as if she was threatening him. Elladan broke out
into laugher and wiped the tears of merriment from his cheeks. One look at
Erestor told him that the recovering Elf was grinning as well. “You might want
to be careful, Erestor. She is spending too much time with Glorfindel! He will
teach her how to wield a sword before she can walk!”
“I do not mind,” Erestor
said and, although he was smiling, a sad expression lay in his eyes. “Something
tells me that she needs to know how to defend herself.”
Elladan rescued his braid
from the Elfling’s grip and carried her over to the bed, where she snuggled up
to Erestor as soon as she was placed in her mother’s arms. “Erestor, I want to
talk to you about that – about Caldarn.”
Erestor lowered his gaze
and hugged his daughter close. “He will come for me. He will not leave me
alone.” He had been Caldarn’s property for five years and the Man had become
used to Erestor warming his bed.
Elladan carefully placed
his hand on Erestor’s arm and ordered, “Please look at me.” Erestor complied
and, once their eyes met, Elladan added, “I will not allow Caldarn to hurt you.
I want you to know that.”
Erestor smiled cautiously.
“Elladan, I do not want you to put yourself or any of the Elves living here in
danger because of me. All I ask of you is that Êl is allowed to stay in Imladris.”
Elladan squeezed his wrist and Erestor looked into the grey eyes, which were
warm and open.
“Listen to me, Erestor.
You belong in Imladris and no Man is going to take you away from us. Your home
is with us now, do you understand? We have adopted you and your daughter and
Glorfindel and I will fight for you.” Elladan saw the tears that swam in
Erestor’s eyes and realized Erestor still wasn’t convinced that he was safe.
Erestor still expected Caldarn to ruin his life again. “I know what will
distract you.” Erestor’s expression was a mixture of hope and rising fear.
“Would you like to join Glorfindel, Melpomaen, and me for dinner in the Hall of
Fire?”
Erestor wasn’t convinced
that was a good idea. “Will there also be other Elves?”
Elladan nodded once. “You
can not stay in this room for the rest of your life, Erestor.”
“I realize that.” Erestor
batted his eyelashes and explained. “It is not that I am afraid of meeting new
people…it is just…they saw me panic and run.”
“There is no reason for
you to feel ashamed or guilty, Erestor. You were under considerable stress at
the moment and most of our fellow Elves have learned by now that you were
trying to care for your daughter. No one blames you, but they are eager to know
you and Êl.” Elladan hoped Erestor was ready to take this step. “I It
would be good if you allowed them to befriend you. You and your daughter need
friends.”
Erestor realized the
wisdom that lay in Elladan’s words: once Caldarn came for them, they would need
friends to back them up. “Êl and I will join you for dinner.” Elladan was right:
that was the smart thing to do.
~~~
Just before Erestor was
going to leave his rooms to join the other Elves in the Hall of Fire,
Glorfindel appeared carrying robes, house shoes, and another dress for Êl.
Erestor didn’t even try to hide his smile upon seeing Glorfindel grin at him.
Glorfindel loved seeing
the open and inviting smile on Erestor’s face and realized how much Erestor had
improved the last few days. The dark circles beneath Erestor’s eyes had faded,
the face had filled out, and the raven hair shone with health. It was a changed
Elf who stood in front of him and Glorfindel could picture Erestor holding a
position of importance perfectly. There was something in the raven-haired Elf’s
stance that told him Erestor had once issued commands.
“What did you bring me
this time?” Erestor surprised himself by using a teasing tone with Glorfindel. But
then again, talking to Glorfindel was easy.
“Formal robes which will
keep you warm and a new dress for Êl.” Glorfindel placed the clothes on the bed
and then leaned against the wall. “Your recovery pleases me. It will not be
long before I will be able to take you out for a walk or horse back riding.”
Glorfindel’s intentions
and enthusiasm made Erestor smile. “You *do* like me, do you not?”
“You and your daughter,”
Glorfindel clarified. “Erestor? Will you sit at my
side tonight?” he requested as he moved toward the bed.
Erestor blushed. “If you
want me at your side, I will be there.” He knew what a huge honor was being
bestowed on him and he felt humble that a Lord like Glorfindel had taken a
liking to him. He had really found his champion.
~~~
Erestor tried to act
composed when he entered the Hall of Fire at Glorfindel’s side. He carried his
daughter in his arms and, since Êl was awake, she looked about curiously. Her
tiny fingers had curled themselves around Erestor’s raven hair and held onto it
for comfort since she was being thrust into new surroundings.
The Hall was enormous and
seemed never ending to the little Elfling. Huge fires sprang from a multitude
of fireplaces and warmed the large room. Long, wooden tables were already being
inhabited by Elves and the first round of wine was being served. In the corner,
high upon a platform, sat Lindir and his fellow minstrels and they were playing
a merry song. There was so much to take in that she became swiftly overwhelmed.
Erestor felt equally overwhelmed, but tried hard not to let it show. But he
felt their eyes upon his form and his heart missed several beats. Sensing
Erestor’s unease, Glorfindel reached for Erestor’s hand and wrapped his fingers
around it. Now both Erestor’s hands were occupied, one by his daughter and the
other by Glorfindel.
Erestor hesitantly met
Glorfindel’s eyes and then managed a warm smile. He knew that Glorfindel
reaching out to him in public was quite a statement and soft murmurs swept
through the Hall.
“Sit down, Erestor.”
Elladan smiled at seeing Glorfindel and Erestor holding hands. He’d had a
suspicion that Glorfindel was smitten with Erestor and the Elfling and his
suspicion was confirmed. He felt happy for Erestor as well as Glorfindel.
Erestor seated himself and
Êl shifted herself in her mother’s arms and looked around slightly, cooing. She
waved her hands and burbled slightly, drooling. Erestor laughed warmly at seeing
his daughter’s fascination with their surroundings. “I blame that on you,” he commented
lightly, addressing Glorfindel. Stroking his daughter’s hair, he was taken
aback by the changes she had gone through. Her head was now covered with raven
hair and her little form had filled out nicely. At first Arwen’s dresses had
been too big for her, but not anymore. “Aye, you are growing so fast.”
“Are you certain you can
take on both roles of being father and mother?” Glorfindel knew that it would
become tougher as time passed.
Erestor gave Glorfindel a
probing look. He had always been quick to understand and read between the
lines. “Are you offering, Glorfindel?”
Glorfindel nodded his head
once. Erestor was intelligent and cunning – definitely a smart Elf. “I would
love to take on the role of father, if you would let me.”
Elladan exchanged a look
with Melpomaen. It seemed a family was forming.
Erestor couldn’t help it
as tears tried to leave his eyes, but he pushed them back. He didn’t want to
cry in public. “Are you certain, Glorfindel? You hardly know me.”
Glorfindel gently squeezed
Erestor’s hand. “That might be true, but I know myself well enough to know that
I want to do this. Your daughter has captured my heart, Erestor.”
“Only
Êl?” Elladan asked as he coughed
delicately. Elladan’s comment caused Erestor’s blush to deepen. He hadn’t
thought Elladan would be so straight-forward.
But Glorfindel didn’t seem
to mind. “Elladan is right. I have taken a liking to you too, Erestor.” He
rubbed Erestor’s fingers between his and cooed at Êl, who seemed extremely
pleased by this development and his closeness.
“Should you not ask
permission to court him?” Melpomaen suggested in his ‘Advisor’ voice. He was also
pleased to see Erestor and Êl this happy and accepted.
“Aye, I should do that!”
Nothing seemed able to embarrass Glorfindel and the warrior gladly accepted the
challenge. “Erestor, will you allow me to officially court you?”
The words swept the smile of
Erestor’s face and his eyes darkened with tears. He quickly wiped them away,
making sure no one saw his tears. “I can not do that, Glorfindel, even though
being courted by you is my greatest desire.”
Frowning, Glorfindel
cocked his head. “Why not?”
“Because
I belong to Caldarn. The moment
he comes for me, I…” Erestor didn’t know how to finish the sentence and his
voice faded. This beautiful dream would end the moment Caldarn appeared.
“Caldarn will never
dominate your life again,” Elladan quickly interjected. “I already gave you my
word that Imladris is your home now. You should accept Glorfindel’s suit,
Erestor. You have no reason not to.”
Erestor looked at his
fingers, which Glorfindel had intertwined with his own. Êl drew his attention
then by cooing at him and he smiled in order to reassure her. She liked
Glorfindel as well so why was he fighting this? He had dreamt of having a lover
and a champion like Glorfindel so why should he reject the Captain now? “I
accept,” Erestor whispered, feeling bashful. Glorfindel’s head reeled with
happiness and he leaned in closer to deposit a tender kiss onto Erestor’s lips.
Glorfindel’s action took Erestor by surprise and he blinked. Glorfindel was
kissing him in public! Deciding she liked seeing Glorfindel that close to
Erestor, Êl raised her tiny hands and patted Glorfindel’s arm.
“Aye, you will receive one
as well, little one!” Thinking the Elfling had grown jealous of all the
attention Erestor was receiving, Glorfindel pressed a kiss onto Êl’s brow. “I love you, too.” Erestor lowered his gaze and
his breath caught. Glorfindel had actually used the L-word. Glorfindel loved
him.
~~~
Erestor found a new item
occupying his rooms upon returning. “A rocking chair?” he asked Glorfindel.
“Celebrían used to rock her
children in it and I thought you might like it, too. Will you give it a try?”
Glorfindel carried Êl in his arms and watched Erestor settle down in the
rocking chair.
Erestor pressed the
rocking chair into motion and smiled. “It is lovely.”
Glorfindel walked over to
Erestor and placed the Elfling in the raven-haired Elf’s arms. “Maybe she will
like it, too.” Êl gave Erestor a surprised look as the rocking motion
registered with her. Then she raised a hand, buried her fingers in the fabric
of the robes, and chirped playfully.
“Is the motion not
supposed to put her to sleep?” So far, rocking her was having the opposite
effect and Erestor wondered if Êl wasn’t tired at all. He felt exhausted. All
night long, he had ignored the looks the other Elves had been giving him and
had kept his fingers twined with Glorfindel’s.
“Nay, it should *help* put
her to sleep!” Glorfindel grinned and walked over to the bed. He pushed back
the covers and then lit a few oil lamps near the bed. One look at Erestor showed
him the obvious. “You are tired, are you not, Erestor?”
“Exhausted,” Erestor
admitted and rose from the rocking chair. The longer he rocked, the livelier
his daughter was becoming.
“I should excuse myself
and give you some privacy,” Glorfindel said and went to head for the doorway,
but then Erestor blocked his path and stopped him.
“Would you stay until Êl
and I are asleep?” Erestor didn’t want to be alone. For some reason, Caldarn’s
defiling presence had been close all evening and the memories about those
dreadful five years still haunted him.
“I will stay.” Glorfindel
watched Erestor and Êl curl up in bed and then walked over to them to tuck them
in. He seated himself on the edge of the bed and smiled at them. He was happy
that he had found his little family to care for.
~~~
“Nay, please…leave me
alone! I do not want to do this!”
Sometime during the night,
Erestor’s screams woke Glorfindel. After Erestor and Êl had fallen asleep, he
had retired to the rocking chair and had slept peacefully, but Erestor’s
pleading had caused his slumber to end. “Erestor?” Êl
was also awake and looked at Glorfindel in fright. Erestor was fighting an
invisible enemy and she was being jostled in the process. Soft yelps and sobs
escaped her.
“Stop it!” Erestor
screamed and then curled up in a fetal position. He had seemingly forgotten
about his daughter and was shutting her out.
Glorfindel quickly made
his way over to Erestor and sat down on the bed. “Erestor?
I need you to wake up!” He didn’t want to physically restrain Erestor since the
dark-haired Elf was already panicking, but he might not have a choice. For now,
he settled for cradling the little Elfling against his chest and comforting
her. She continued to wail and Glorfindel rocked her in his arms, whispering
reassurances. In between his whispers, he continued to try to reach Erestor.
“Erestor, I need you to wake up now!” He hoped that raising his voice would do
the trick.
It worked, but in a
different way than he had hoped. Erestor released a keening wail and abruptly
sat upright. The expression in the dark eyes was haunted and Glorfindel wished
there had been another way to wake up Erestor. He regretted having to raise his
voice. “Erestor, please look at me. It is I, Glorfindel and you are safe. You
are in Imladris and Êl is here with you.”
Erestor was panting hard.
He needed time to orientate himself and to realize he was in Imladris – in
safety. In his dreams, Caldarn had come for him and had dragged him away from
his daughter by his hair. Being separated from his daughter was the worst thing
that could happen to him and seeing her in Glorfindel’s arms made him reach out
and hug her tightly against his chest. “I almost lost you.”
Glorfindel felt teary-eyed
upon hearing what Erestor’s nightmare had been about. “I vow that Caldarn will
never succeed in separating you from your daughter.” Erestor was shaking like a
leaf when he lay down again and Glorfindel wondered if he should offer his
company – close company. “Would you like for me to hold you?” He would often like
to be held after a nightmare and he surmised that Erestor probably wasn’t any
different.
Erestor managed to compose
himself again and gave Glorfindel a thankful nod. “I would like that. And so
would Êl.” Erestor cradled his daughter against his chest. Since he had calmed
down, she had as well. Her too short arms tried to embrace him and she pressed
herself as close as possible as she rubbed her face in his chest.
Glorfindel decided against
spooning up behind Erestor. Instead, he stretched out on his side in front of
Erestor and wrapped both Elf and Elfling up in a hug. With one hand he pulled
the blanket back into place and then settled down for the rest of the night.
Since he was face to face with Erestor, he saw the grateful expression in the
large eyes. “You and your daughter are safe with me.” Erestor nodded his head
and Glorfindel brushed the raven hair away from the face. “I should have done
this the first time you went to sleep. Then, you might not have had that
nightmare.”
“Glorfindel?” Erestor looked at his daughter and saw that she
had dozed off again. It was safe for him to speak about his feelings then.
After the incident he had just caused, he didn’t want to cause her to be upset
again.
Seeing the doubt in
Erestor’s eyes, Glorfindel wondered what had put it there. “What troubles you?”
“I should not have
accepted you as my suitor.”
Erestor’s words hit
Glorfindel like a cold shower. “Why do you say that now? What has changed?” Had
he done something wrong?
“It is not about you,”
Erestor quickly explained. “It has everything to do with me and what Caldarn
did to me. You know what he did to me…” Erestor blushed and closed his eyes.
“Glorfindel, I gave in to him because I did not have a choice. I do not know
what will happen should we…should the two of us… ever…”
“Want to make love?”
Glorfindel finished for him and then released a relieved sigh. For one moment,
Erestor had managed to scare him! “Erestor, I have no intention to rush this!
We will take our time and *you* will set the pace!” He was actually glad that
Erestor had brought this up! This way he could do away with any
misunderstandings! “You arrived in Imladris only two weeks ago! Give yourself
some time!”
Erestor raised a shaky
hand and cupped Glorfindel’s face. Not so long ago, blue eyes staring at him
like that would have scared him. But that had changed. In Glorfindel’s eyes, he
saw emotions he had never seen before in blue eyes. Caldarn’s eyes had been
cold and predatory. Glorfindel’s were filled with concern and affection. Such a
huge difference! “I thank the Valar for putting you on my path, Glorfindel.”
Glorfindel pressed a
chaste kiss on Erestor’s brow. “And I thank them for putting you and Êl on
mine. I always wanted a little family of my own.”
“A
family? You already think of us
as your family?” Erestor failed to fight back his tears and they dripped from
his face.
“Do not cry, Erestor,
please!” Glorfindel wiped away the tears.
“I can not *not* cry. I am
too happy!”
“Ah, those are tears of
happiness then. Then let them fall.” Glorfindel continued to wipe away the
tears and was no longer bothered at seeing them fall, for he knew that Erestor
was shedding them out of happiness.
~~~
“Good morning,” Glorfindel
said cheerfully as he woke with Erestor pressed tightly against him. The rest
of Erestor’s sleep had been peaceful and Glorfindel suspected that it had
everything to do with his presence. /He feels safe with me./
“Good morning,
Glorfindel,” Erestor replied, smiling as well. Waking up in Glorfindel’s arms
felt wonderful. Êl’s eyelids fluttered and she opened
her eyes as well. She woke up in-between two warm bodies and the Elfling cooed
to express her contentment.
“I wish I could spend the
day with you, but Elrond is scheduled to return today and Melpomaen and I need
to make all the necessary preparations.”
“Can I help?” Erestor
wanted to help, to pay these kind Elves back for their hospitality.
“You can help by staying
indoors, resting, eating, and taking care of Êl. Later, when it is time for
dinner, I would love for you and your daughter to join us in the Hall of Fire.”
“I really can not help?”
Erestor’s pleading
expression ensnared Glorfindel, who tightened his hold on the raven-haired Elf.
Êl, wedged in-between them, started to wiggle about and kicked her legs a bit.
Delighted, Glorfindel rolled onto his back and hugged her close. “Good morning
to you as well, my Lady!”
Seeing Glorfindel care so
naturally for his daughter made Erestor realize that
he really had a future there at Glorfindel’s side. He didn’t know why, but it
was obvious that Glorfindel had truly accepted them as his family.
~~~
Elladan blinked. He still
wasn’t sure how Erestor had convinced him to let him tag along. When he had
visited Erestor, Elladan had been determined to make certain the raven-haired
Elf rested and spent the day with Êl, but somehow Erestor had talked him into
letting him tag along. They now stood in Elrond’s study preparing for the
half-Elf’s return. Êl was settled against Erestor’s shoulder and wore a new
dress that was midnight blue lined with silver. Her hair, while still growing, now
covered her scalp.
“You will like my father,”
Elladan said while sorting out the paperwork that had been left on Elrond’s
desk. “He loves Elflings. You should have seen him when Arwen was born. He
adored her.”
“I just hope that I will
be allowed to stay,” Erestor answered softly while rubbing his daughter’s back.
Elladan shook his head.
“How many more times do I need to assure you that you have found your home with
us?”
Erestor gave Elladan an
apologetic look. “I find it hard to believe that all my problems have been
solved. Good things do not happen to me.”
Elladan placed a hand on
Erestor’s shoulder and squeezed softly. “Your life has changed.” Elladan was
about to add more when a loud commotion coming from the courtyard caught his
attention. “That must be them!” He took hold of Erestor’s hand and pulled him
along. “We should greet them!”
Erestor had no choice as
he was pulled along by a very energetic Elladan and so followed suit. Êl loved
the sudden speed they had gained and laughed. She had no idea who she was going
to meet in a few minutes.
~~~~
Glorfindel escorted
Elrond’s party the last few miles. He had met the half-Elf at the border and
had been relieved to learn that there had been no incidents. Ever since Lady
Celebrían had been attacked and injured, Glorfindel constantly worried about
their safety. Glorfindel had been surprised to find that Arwen and Elrohir were
not part of the party. Apparently the two half-Elves had chosen to remain
longer with their grandmother, while their grandfather, Celeborn, had opted to
visit Imladris and had traveled with Elrond’s party. Glorfindel hoped that he
would find a chance to talk to Celeborn in private, since the Elf-Lord’s name
was the only one Erestor had responded to.
“Glorfindel, I am happy to
be home again. Although the Golden Wood possesses a charm of its own, I will
always like Imladris best!” Elrond had wanted to leave sooner, but Arwen and
Elrohir had pleaded with him to stay longer. He had stayed an extra month, but
then had begun to feel homesick and yearned to return to his sweet valley.
“Imladris is happy to
welcome her Lord again!” Glorfindel replied, smiling. Turning to Celeborn, he
asked, “How is your Lady, Milord? I trust all is well?”
Celeborn nodded his head
once. “She is delighted to have the company of her grandchildren for a longer
period of time. It is a pity that Elladan could not join them. Tell me, did he
rule Imladris well?”
“He replaced his father
rather well. Imladris is still standing!” Glorfindel laughed warmly and
Celeborn joined in. Elrond just grinned proudly.
~~~
“Elladan, I would rather
go to my room.” Erestor stood next to Elladan and was growing uneasy since the
crowd surrounding them kept growing. The whole of Imladris had gathered to
welcome their Lord home.
“Erestor, please just
stay. Glorfindel will also arrive in a moment and he can escort you to your
rooms if you still want to leave by then.” Elladan had narrowed his eyes the
moment the party had come into view. His Elven eyes made out his father’s form,
Glorfindel’s, and, to his surprise, Celeborn’s. His grandfather had decided to
visit with them then!
Erestor had also seen
Glorfindel and he smiled brilliantly as he saw the golden-haired Elf sitting
high up on his stallion wearing his formal robes. The golden hair shone in the
sun and the warrior’s stance was one of pride. Erestor had fallen as hard for
Glorfindel as the Captain had fallen for him and seeing Glorfindel approach
convinced him to stay a little longer.
Celeborn always enjoyed
visiting Imladris. The Elves there were carefree and merrier than the Galadhrim.
Celeborn felt at home there. His gaze swept over the welcoming crowd and he
finally made out Elladan’s face. Celeborn started to raise his hand in order to
wave at his grandson, but then froze. The Elf standing next to Elladan…that
couldn’t possibly be...Erestor...could it? His hands tightened on the reins and
his horse came to a sudden stop. Elrond raised an eyebrow, wondering what had
caught Celeborn’s attention. Glorfindel told Asfaloth to come to a halt as well
and followed the direction of Celeborn’s gaze. Celeborn was staring at Erestor,
who was staring back at him, deadly pale. “Elrond…Glorfindel, who is that Elf
standing beside Elladan?” Celeborn shook his head. His eyes had to be deceiving
him!
Elrond frowned. “I do not
know that Elf.” He had never seen him before!
“His name is Erestor,
Milord,” Glorfindel answered. “At least, we think that is his name. We do not
know for certain. He lost a large part of his memory.” Glorfindel involuntarily
held his breath for there was recognition in Celeborn’s eyes! “Do you know
him?”
Celeborn nodded once.
“Aye, I know him.” Celeborn dismounted and then turned to look at Elrond.
“Excuse me, I have to do something and it can not wait.” Celeborn’s pace was
swift and Glorfindel realized the Lord of the Golden Wood was heading for
Erestor. One look at Erestor’s face showed him that the other Elf was
panicking. The only thing that kept Erestor in place was that Elladan had a
hold on his hand.
Erestor *knew* the
silver-haired Elf that was advancing on him. The name wouldn’t come to him yet,
but he knew the face, the hazel eyes, and the intelligence that hid behind the
somewhat sullen look. He felt frozen and Êl, who was pressing herself against
him, was holding her breath as she sensed Erestor’s nervousness.
“Erestor? Is that really you?” Celeborn stood in front of
Erestor and raised a hand to touch the raven hair.
“Celeborn…” Erestor
finally remembered the other Elf’s name. “Celeborn,” he repeated, thrilled that
he was remembering and that they were good memories as far as he could sense. “I
know you!”
“You should! You are my
Advisor, Erestor!” Celeborn was so happy to have found Erestor again that he
embraced the Elf who he had believed dead for the last five years. Êl however
was in the way and protested loudly when Celeborn pressed against Erestor.
Glorfindel had slid off of
Asfaloth’s back and was hurrying over to Erestor’s side to lend him moral
support, should the other Elf need it. The fact that Celeborn had recognized
Erestor gave him hope that the raven-haired Elf’s origin had been uncovered.
Celeborn registered the
squealing and looked down to find what was causing the pitiful sound. Seeing
big, blue eyes and raven hair on the Elfling, Celeborn blinked. “Erestor? Who is that?” He had just recovered from one
surprise and the next one was already upon him.
“This is my daughter, Êl.”
Erestor smiled at Celeborn. “I have much to tell you.” The memories that
flooded his mind were all soothing and reassuring. They showed him the life
which he had led in the Golden Wood, acting as one of Celeborn’s most trusted
Advisors. Glorfindel reached Erestor’s side and quickly took hold of Erestor’s
hand possessively, which was noticed by all the other Elves.
Elrond, who had kept back
until that moment, decided it was time to act. “I do not know what this is all
about, but I insist you tell me. Celeborn, Glorfindel, Erestor, I expect to see
you in my study in one hour.” He needed time to talk to Melpomaen and let his
Chief Advisor update him.
“We will be there,”
Glorfindel answered as he rubbed Erestor’s digits between his. Êl yawned and
gave the adults a displeased look. It was time for her to take a nap and these
Elves were keeping her awake.
“I should put her to bed,”
Erestor whispered as he looked at his daughter and catching her yawn.
Celeborn, still shocked,
watched Erestor and Glorfindel walk off hand in hand. For the last five years –
long years at that – he had believed Erestor dead and now he found out that his
Advisor was still alive. “Elrond, you should have told me…” But one look at
Elrond told him that his son-in-law had no idea what he was talking about.
“Celeborn, we need to
talk. Melpomaen, join us. The three of us are going to my study – now.” Elrond
took charge and marched into the corridor. He hated mysteries and wanted to
know exactly what had happened during his absence.
~~~
Glorfindel seated himself
next to Erestor who had sat down on the windowsill after placing Êl to sleep in
the bed. He had tucked her in and she was now contentedly suckling her thumb.
“How much do you remember?” Glorfindel asked as he saw bafflement in the dark
eyes.
“I remember my life before
Caldarn put his hands on me. I was born in the Golden Wood. My father belonged
to Celeborn’s private guard and my mother is one of Galadriel’s companions. I had
always lived in the Golden Wood and after I had reached my majority I had
become an Advisor. Throughout the years, Celeborn came to appreciate my counsel
and I became his right hand.” Erestor’s hands lay idle in his lap and he stared
at the floor. “One day, Celeborn asked me to negotiate with a group of humans
which had settled down close to the Golden Wood.”
Erestor trembled and
Glorfindel reached for the other Elf’s hand. Curling his fingers around
Erestor’s, he waited for the dark-haired Elf to continue his tale, although he
sensed that something bad was going to happen. “The humans assaulted us. They
took us by surprise, outnumbering us. I received a blow to my head during the
fight and lost consciousness. When I woke next, I was bound and Caldarn was
lurking close. The letter I had carried was meant for him.” Erestor shook his
head. “We were careless.”
Glorfindel’s features
contorted and he played with Erestor’s fingers, rubbing and squeezing them.
“Your guards were careless, aye. They should have expected an attack.”
“But it happened,
Glorfindel. It is useless to put the blame on anyone.” Erestor drew in a deep
breath and looked Glorfindel in the eye. “My name is Erestor and I hail from
the Golden Wood. I used to be Celeborn’s Chief Advisor.” Glorfindel disliked
the depressed tone to Erestor’s voice and the eyes showed sadness as well. Something
wasn’t right. “And what am I now, Glorfindel? He used me for five years. I
allowed him to take advantage of me. I am an Elf. I should have been able to
fight him off!” Erestor’s voice rose in anger, but realizing he might wake Êl,
he grew silent again.
Glorfindel shook his head.
“Nay, Erestor, you did not ‘allow’ it. You had no choice! You lost your memory
and you were injured. He took advantage of you all right, but not because you
allowed it! Do not blame yourself for what happened!”
Erestor smiled warmly at
Glorfindel. When he had fled Caldarn’s hold, he had never expected to find a
hero – his champion – on his way. “Will you stand at my side when I talk to
Celeborn and Elrond?” He needed the emotional support.
“I will.”
“But someone should watch
over Êl. I do not want her to be alone,” Erestor said.
“I know the right person
to look after him,” Glorfindel hinted. “Just wait here for me.” Glorfindel
kissed Erestor’s brow and exited the bedroom. A few minutes later, he returned
with a white-haired Elf in tow.
“This is Lindir,”
Glorfindel said, introducing the minstrel to Erestor. “He often minded Arwen
when she was little and he has the loveliest voice to sing Êl back to sleep
should she wake up.” Erestor studied Lindir for a long moment. He wouldn’t
entrust his daughter to just any Elf and wanted to be certain that Lindir was
the right Elf for the job.
“You can trust me to care
for your daughter,” Lindir said, smiling reassuringly. “I gained lots of
experience when I looked after the Lady Arwen when she was just an Elfling. I
know what to do.”
Erestor was inclined to
believe Lindir. After all, Glorfindel had recommended him. “Please let me know
if she needs me. I do not want her to be unnecessarily upset.”
“I will send someone
should we need you.” Lindir approved of the fact that Erestor was that
protective of the Elfling. Each parent should be protective like that.
~~~
“And you thought Erestor
died five years ago?” summarized Elrond. Melpomaen, Celeborn, and Elrond were
seated around the Elf-Lord’s oak desk and Elrond was doing his best to deal
with all the information he had just received.
Celeborn nodded gravely.
“I did. I had sent a recovery team, but they had found only a few corpses,
burned beyond recognition. I had assumed Erestor was among them. I should not
have done that. I made a mistake.”
“You could not have known
that Erestor had been injured and abducted,” Melpomaen said in an effort to
comfort the troubled Lord of the Golden Wood.
“Melpomaen, did Erestor
tell you what happened while he was in captivity?” Celeborn studied the Chief
Advisor carefully, sensing that Melpomaen was holding back. “And
what about his daughter? Who is her mother?”
“Erestor should tell you,”
Melpomaen replied, uncertain that he should give Celeborn the details of
Erestor’s captivity. But then again, maybe Erestor would be grateful that he
didn’t have to tell them himself. “I will tell you,” he corrected himself
eventually and hoped Celeborn would remain calm during his tale.
~~~
Celeborn felt shocked
after listening to Melpomaen’s grueling tale. “I should have searched harder
for Erestor! It is my fault that Caldarn… oh, by the Grace of the Valar, that
Man abused him!” Celeborn banged his fist on Elrond’s desk.
“Compose yourself,” Elrond reprimanded his father-in-law. “Erestor
will need you sane and sound when he gets here.” Elrond had listened carefully
and now directed his attention back to Melpomaen. “Does Erestor want to stay?
Or do you think he will want to return to the Golden Wood now that he
remembers? Offer me your counsel.”
Melpomaen took a moment to
ponder the question. “I believe that he will want to stay in Imladris. He will
not want to part from Glorfindel. They have grown close these last few days and
Glorfindel adores the little Elfling.” Melpomaen frowned deeply. “Elrond,
Erestor is afraid that you will tell him to leave Imladris.”
Elladan, who had remained in
the background, nodded while adding, “I had to frequently reassure him that he
can stay.”
Elrond angrily glared at
the flames in the fireplace and they seemed to grow taller under his stare. “Of
course can he stay! What kind of Elf would I be if I
told him to leave?” Elrond drew in a deep breath. “We need to talk to Erestor.”
“And Glorfindel,”
Melpomaen added.
“Send for them,” Elrond
ordered. “We will solve this now.”
~~~
Erestor shuffled his feet
nervously and remained standing near the doorway. Even though he had recovered
his memories and had Glorfindel at his side, he still felt intimidated by the
Elf-Lords’ presence. He knew what he had to tell Celeborn and he wasn’t looking
forward to admitting his shame.
“Erestor, please seat
yourself. You look pale, my dear old friend.” Celeborn did his best to break
the ice. He rose from his chair, walked over to Erestor, and raised his hand,
pointing at the comfortable chairs near the fire place.
“Thank you.” Erestor felt
reassured once Celeborn had called him his friend. He walked toward the chairs
and kept a tight hold on Glorfindel’s hand. He wasn’t letting go. Glorfindel followed
and the two Elves seated themselves. Elrond should have taken charge, but
didn’t. Celeborn was the best Elf to handle this situation since he knew
Erestor best. He would observe and listen.
Celeborn cleared his
throat, pulled his chair closer to the fireplace and seated himself opposite
Erestor. “Melpomaen told us everything that happened to you, so you do not have
to do that yourself.”
Erestor released a
relieved sigh. “Thank you,” he said, addressing Melpomaen. “I am not sure I
would have managed.”
“You will always be
welcome here, Erestor. But you also have a home in the Golden Wood. No matter
what you decide, we will support you.” Celeborn was relieved to see Erestor’s
expression grow clearer. He also noticed the way Erestor was holding onto Glorfindel’s
hand and smiled. “And you have a daughter now.”
Erestor smiled gingerly.
“Her name is Êl. I had to protect her when Caldarn wanted to end her life. She
is only a baby. She did nothing wrong.”
“I am glad you ran,”
Glorfindel interjected. “You ran to me.” He guided Erestor’s hand to his lips
and pressed a kiss onto the back.
Celeborn laughed warmly at
seeing Erestor blush. It was obvious that Erestor had recovered due to
Glorfindel’s care. Melpomaen had told him how bad Erestor’s condition had been
when he had arrived in Imladris. “I assume you would like to stay in Imladris with
Glorfindel?”
Erestor felt relieved that
his talk with Celeborn was going so well. The Lord of the Golden Wood did most
of the talking and seemed to have reached the right conclusions. “I would like
that.”
Celeborn reached for
Erestor’s knee and squeezed it. “I will stay for a few weeks. Hopefully, we can
rebuild the bond of trust which we used to have in the past. I would also love
to be able to know your daughter better and maybe, in the future, you would
like to visit the Golden Wood again.”
“Thank you. You have
always been a kind Lord and a good friend.” Erestor smiled at Celeborn. “And
aye, I will visit the Golden Wood in the future. But right now, I would like to
stay with Glorfindel.” The fact that he had found love there was too precious
to let it slip to his fingers. He would hold onto that.
Celeborn smiled back and
wanted to reassure Erestor that Caldarn no longer posed a threat. No matter
where Erestor stayed, either in Imladris or Golden Wood, guards would make
certain that no Man were allowed close to Erestor. But in the end, he stayed
quiet, knowing Elladan and most certainly Glorfindel had already promised
Erestor the same thing. “I am glad to have you back, my dear friend,” he said finally.
Elrond, who agreed with
Celeborn, nodded his head once. “Imladris is your new home and we are all happy
to have another Elfling in the Last Homely House.” Elrond knew himself well
enough to know he would fall for the little Lady. He always did where Elflings
were concerned.
~~~
“That went well,” Erestor
commented when he snuggled up to Glorfindel. They lay face to face and Êl was
buried protectively in-between them. Erestor had been pleasantly surprised to
find Lindir entertaining his daughter with a song upon their return. Êl had
obviously taken a liking to the minstrel and Erestor was relieved that they now
had a minder his daughter liked and trusted.
“Aye, I told you Elrond
would understand and it was a good thing that Celeborn was present as well.”
Glorfindel caressed Erestor’s face and smiled at his new lover. “How much do
you remember? Everything?”
Erestor cocked his head so
he could rub his cheek against Glorfindel’s fingers. He savored the caress. “I
remember everything. It feels good having my memories complete, but…” He closed
his eyes and swallowed hard. “I would give everything to forget the last five
years.” He felt tainted, marred, and uncertain about how he would react to
Glorfindel’s advances should their relationship deepen. “I feel…incomplete.
Caldarn took something away from me: the ability to enjoy making love.”
Glorfindel fought the
feeling of anger that tried to take hold of him. He would love to even the
score with Caldarn for mistreating Erestor! He drew in a calming breath and
twirled a strand of Erestor’s raven hair around a fingertip. “I have no
intention of rushing you, Erestor. We have all the time we need.”
Glorfindel’s words
reassured Erestor and he rested his head against the Captain’s shoulder. Êl was
sound asleep and her fingers had wrapped themselves in Erestor’s nightshirt. As
far as she was concerned, sleeping in-between Erestor and Glorfindel was the
best thing in the world.
~~~
Over the next few days,
Erestor settled into a routine which felt comfortable since he had regained his
memories. Escorted by Glorfindel, he joined Celeborn, Elrond, Elladan, and
Melpomaen in the Elf-Lord’s study. Although he couldn’t *really* help, Elrond
found a few tasks he could carry out without needing knowledge. Once Glorfindel
was convinced that Erestor was in good hands, the warrior marched onto the
training grounds. He needed to work out in order to release his pent-up anger.
Glorfindel was of two
minds regarding Caldarn. A part of him hoped that the Man would be so foolish
to come to Imladris so he could confront Erestor’s tormentor. Another part of
him hoped, for Erestor’s sake, that Caldarn would leave him alone. He was
afraid that Erestor would suffer a set-back in his recovery should Caldarn
appear in Imladris.
After working himself into
a sweat, he realized that he had no say in the matter whether Caldarn would
come for Erestor or not. All he could do was to be there for Erestor in any way
he could.
~~~
Erestor enjoyed working alongside
Celeborn and Elladan. He kept at a distance from Elrond, although he wasn’t
sure why. Maybe it was because he simply didn’t know the Elf and Elrond needed
to gain his trust.
When evening approached,
Erestor began to yearn to return to his daughter, who was being babysat by
Lindir, and excused himself. Well, he wanted to excuse himself but something was
in the way: Elrond.
“Would you allow me to
accompany you? I would love to meet your daughter.” Elrond carefully schooled
his features in an effort to look reassuring and approachable. He knew he could
sometimes be hard to approach and even acted a bit aloof because he was lost in
thought and he didn’t want to make that mistake now.
Erestor wavered. He knew
it was important to befriend the Elf-Lord, but he would rather have done so
with Glorfindel present. In the end, he nodded and managed a weak smile. “I am
honored you would like to visit with her.”
Elrond smiled and beamed
with contentment when Erestor accepted. “I have a weak spot for Elflings, or so
I have been told.”
Celeborn laughed. “I can
vouch for that. He spoiled Arwen completely!”
Elrond fell into step
beside Erestor as they made their way to Erestor’s guest rooms. It reminded
Elrond that he wanted to address the matter of Erestor’s lodgings. “I was
wondering, Erestor. Would you like to have your own rooms or would you rather
move into Glorfindel’s? You are staying in guest rooms and permanent lodging
would be best.”
Elrond’s question threw
Erestor off balance. “May I think about that?” He would love moving into
Glorfindel’s rooms because he would feel safer there, but he wanted to discuss
the matter with Glorfindel first. On top of that, having his
own rooms sounded tempting as well. For the last five years he’d hardly
had any privacy.
“Of
course!” Elrond understood
Erestor’s dilemma and granted him all the time the other Elf would need.
They arrived at the door
to Erestor’s temporary rooms and Erestor opened the door. He remained standing
in the doorway to savor the sight that greeted him. Lindir was still present,
but Glorfindel had joined in as well. Êl was having a good time seated on
Glorfindel’s thigh and riding the fabled warrior’s leg as if he was a pony. She
cooed, chirped, and buried her fingers in the golden hair.
Elrond laughed as he saw
Glorfindel carefully bounce the Elfling. It seemed the Elfling was in control –
Arwen had been in control as well when she had still been little. “My Lady, you
have an extraordinary ride!” Hearing the strange voice, Êl looked over. She saw
the strange Elf and cooed, reaching for him. She obviously mistook him for his
son, Elladan.
Erestor raised a hand and
smiled. “You are riding Glorfindel so well! I would as well but I am a bit too
heavy to ride poor Glorfindel.” Erestor completely forgot the sexual innuendo
that Glorfindel could read in those words, but a wicked grin coming from the
golden-haired Elf made him realize what he had just said and he blushed in
response. “Not like that,” he said, not realizing he was only amusing
Glorfindel more.
“We will see who rides who
well, Erestor,” Glorfindel hinted wickedly.
“May I play with her?”
Elrond made his way over to Glorfindel and the Elfling. Glorfindel decided he needed a rest and handed
Êl to Elrond. Elrond was delighted to see another Elfling in the Last Homely
House and it didn’t take him long to remember the tricks that had amused Arwen
when she had been little.
Erestor lowered himself
onto the ground next to Glorfindel and willingly went into the tight hug the
golden-haired Elf bestowed on him. Erestor took a moment to relish the peaceful
moment. Lindir was softly singing, Elrond was entertaining Êl, and Glorfindel
was hugging him tight. He was perfectly happy and, at the same time, he was
afraid that it wouldn’t last.
~~~
Erestor’s breath caught
when he entered Glorfindel’s rooms. After careful consideration, Erestor had
decided to move in with Glorfindel. He had become accustomed to sleeping in
Glorfindel’s arms and to having the warrior close.
“I tried to give you a
warm welcome,” Glorfindel said in explanation for the presence of the multitude
of scented candles which stood scattered throughout the room. Glorfindel had
put roses next to the bed and he shuffled his feet nervously, hoping Erestor
liked it and that he hadn’t overdone it. In the corner of the room lay a rug
made from furs and all of Êl’s favorite toys lay
there as well.
“You succeeded in doing
that.” Erestor felt deeply touched that Glorfindel had done this to make him
feel welcome. “I already feel at home.”
“It is already late and Êl
is yawning. Would you like to curl up in bed?” Glorfindel gave Erestor a
hopeful look.
Erestor wavered. Ever
since he had taken to sleeping in Glorfindel’s arms, he had done so clothed: either
wearing his robes or a nightshirt, but that night was a night of great
importance for it signaled a new chapter in his life. He wanted to do something
for Glorfindel in turn.
Glorfindel pushed back the
covers of his four-poster bed and removed all of his clothes except for his
leggings. For some reason he wasn’t comfortable yet going to bed naked.
Sometimes, there was an expression in Erestor’s eyes that warned him that the
raven-haired Elf wasn’t ready yet for such intimacy. And Glorfindel stayed true
to his word: he let Erestor set the pace. Naturally, he was thus surprised to
find that Erestor had removed his shirt as well and only wearing his leggings.
That was a first.
Encouraged by the step
Erestor seemed willing to take Glorfindel slipped between the covers and then
patted the space next to him. Erestor first placed his daughter on the mattress
and then stretched out on his side in front of Glorfindel. The warrior’s arms
instantly came around him and pulled him close. Êl presented a barrier in their
bed and Erestor was painfully aware of the fact that he was using her to keep
Glorfindel at a distance. He knew darn well that the golden-haired Elf wouldn’t
approach him while the Elfling shared their bed. “I am sorry that I can not be
the lover you so rightly deserve,” Erestor said, feeling miserable.
“Please do not feel
guilty,” Glorfindel whispered as he caressed Erestor’s face affectionately.
“You set the pace, always remember that.”
Erestor smiled warmly at
the warrior. “Thank you.” He snuggled closer and rubbed his cheek against
Glorfindel’s shoulder. He hoped that one day he could put Caldarn behind him
and move on to *really* becoming Glorfindel’s lover.
~~~
Erestor had formed a habit
in accompanying Elrond and Elladan during the day, assisting where he could.
Celeborn watched on with amusement, although he felt a bit saddened, knowing he
had lost his former Chief Advisor to Imladris. But he didn’t mind really, since
Erestor’s happiness was more important to him.
It was still early in the
morning and Elrond had taken up residence in the Hall of Fire. Flanked by
Elladan and Erestor, he listened to the Elves who had come to plead their case,
request help, or seek his advice. Everything went smoothly until it was time
for the last party to appear before the Elf-Lord.
“Let me pass! I don’t care
about your rules and regulations. I’m here to take back what is mine!”
Erestor froze the moment
the voice first cut through the air. He started to shake like a leaf and the
quill which he had been holding snapped in two. His worst nightmare had come true!
He had been afraid that Caldarn would come for him and, since his former
tormentor had arrived, Glorfindel was nowhere in sight!
Annoyed, Elrond looked
toward the doorway. A party of six Men was making their way toward him and
Elrond’s instincts kicked in as he saw the predatory glare in the leader’s eyes
– blue eyes, he noticed. They seldom had human visitors and Elrond grew
instantly alert. He rose from his chair, arched an eyebrow, and glared at the
leader in turn.
Elladan happened to glance
at Erestor and saw how deadly pale the raven-haired Elf had become as well as
how the hands shook and the quill that had broken. One look at the leader of
the party of Men showed him that he had blue eyes and they were aimed at
Erestor. It didn’t take Elladan long to reach the correct conclusion.
“I am Lord Caldarn and I
demand back what belongs to me!”
Erestor fought to keep his
breathing even. Caldarn hadn’t changed a bit. The Man sported short, reddish
hair, had predatory, cruel eyes, and was wrapped up in furs of the animals he
had killed himself. Flanked by the soldiers Caldarn trusted the most, the Man
felt confident and in control of the situation. Erestor considered running out
of the Hall at that very moment, but suddenly Elladan appeared behind him and
placed his hands on his shoulders, keeping him in place. “Stay,” whispered
Elladan in determination. “Do not run.” This was the moment Erestor had been
afraid of all along and they would face Caldarn together. He had even sent a
servant to fetch Glorfindel, knowing Erestor would want the warrior at his
side.
Elrond instantly felt
infuriated. “How dare you march into my Hall like that? Guards!”
He wanted them close in case Caldarn was foolish enough to try to take Erestor
by force.
“That Elf seated over
there is mine and I demand you hand him over to me! He has no business being
here! He is my property!” Elrond’s reprimand didn’t impress Caldarn. He knew
his soldiers would back him up and he was cocky enough to believe he could take
on the ‘feeble and fragile’ Elves. After
all, Erestor was fragile; he had easily beaten the raven-haired Elf into
submission. Guards appeared in the Hall of Fire, greatly outnumbering Caldarn’s
party. Caldarn didn’t realize it yet, but he was badly outmatched.
“No Elf belongs to a Man!”
Elrond spat. “What you did to Erestor is unforgivable!”
Caldarn blinked and
realized Erestor had made friends in Imladris. Maybe reclaiming his former plaything
wouldn’t be as easy as he had thought and he tried a different approach. “I demand
you return my mate to me and my daughter.”
Erestor had had enough. He
felt strengthened knowing Elladan and Elrond would back him up and he shook off
Elladan’s hands when he jumped up from his chair. “You wanted to kill her by leaving
her in the woods to die!”
“That is my right! You
gave birth to a useless daughter when I wanted a son!” Caldarn raised his voice
in anger and advanced on Erestor. Erestor stood his ground mostly because he
saw the guards moving in on Caldarn as Glorfindel marched inside and headed for
him.
“Useless?” Elrond was
truly angry now. “Useless? Each Elfling, each child that comes to us is
precious! The fact that you intended to abandon her takes away any right you
might have had to care for your daughter.”
Glorfindel had been told
what had been happening and glared at Caldarn. So this was the Man who had hurt
Erestor so much! The Man was taller than he had thought as well as bulky and he
could very well imagine that an amnesiac and injured Erestor had stood no
chance against the bully.
“Give me what belongs to
me and I will leave your Hall. I have no intention to stay here at any rate.”
Caldarn glared at the two guards that kept him from reaching for Erestor. “He’s
mine!”
Erestor shook his head
determinedly. “You used and abused me, Caldarn. No more. It ends here.” Celeborn
had noticed the commotion in the Hall and appeared behind Elrond. So this was
the Man who had taken his friend and Advisor away from him.
“You heard Erestor,”
Glorfindel hissed from between clenched teeth. “If it were up to me, I would
beat you to the borders, but…” Erestor placed a hand on his arm to calm him and
Glorfindel forced himself to compose himself. “I will abide by Lord Elrond’s
ruling.”
“Escort this Man and his
companions to our borders,” Elrond commanded the guards. “And listen carefully,
Caldarn. Should you ever set foot on Imladris’ soil again, you will meet your
death.”
Caldarn was actually
stunned to hear an Elf threaten him. “How dare you…?” He stormed forward as he
drew his dagger and aimed it at Elrond. He thought the half-Elf an easy target
since Erestor had always been an easy target and was baffled to see Elrond move
faster than the eye could see. Elrond had had enough. The impertinent Man
actually dared to attack him! Using his superior strength and agility, he tried
to force Caldarn to drop the dagger, but Caldarn refused.
“Elrond!” Glorfindel, being in charge of Elrond’s safety,
moved forward and was ready to fight Caldarn off. But Elrond was an experienced
warrior and didn’t need any assistance. Caldarn,
enraged that Elrond proved a formidable opponent, lost his composure and tried
to stab at the half-Elf’s chest. Elrond didn’t have a choice then. He had to
defend himself and, since Caldarn refused to drop the dagger, Elrond had no
choice but to use the weapon against the Man. Erestor watched everything in
slow motion. The situation had escalated and he now feared for Elrond’s safety.
He had been a fool not to give in to Caldarn and leave with him. He would never
forgive himself if Elrond had to pay the price for his choice.
Caldarn’s eyes widened and
he struggled to suck in his breath. Shocked, he stumbled backward and looked
down at his body. The dagger had been plunged into his chest, piercing his
heart. He gave Elrond a last, stupefied look and then collapsed. The Man’s
blood spread over the floor and his body twitched one last time with the last
bits of his fleeting life. Erestor moved forward, but was caught by Glorfindel
dead in his tracks when the other Elf wrapped his arms around him. “Do not do
that,” Glorfindel advised.
Caldarn’s hired help took
several steps backwards. They weren’t as blinded as Caldarn and they knew how
lethal Elves could be. They weren’t going to risk a fight which they knew they
would lose. At Elladan’s gesture, the guards escorted the Men out of the Hall.
That left Erestor staring at Caldarn’s corpse. He couldn’t believe what had
just happened. Elrond and Caldarn had struggled and Caldarn had died in the
process. His tormentor was dead. His daughter was safe. *He* was safe!
Celeborn saw the emotions
playing across Erestor’s face. Had Caldarn not met his fate a moment ago, he
would have taken the matter into his own hands and would have dealt with
Caldarn in his own way, ensuring the Man would never bother Erestor again.
~~~
“He is dead,” Erestor said
aloud to no one in particular. His daughter was drinking her bottled milk that
Elrond was feeding her. The Elf-Lord had really taken a liking to Êl and
pampered her. “I can not believe he is dead.”
Glorfindel had escorted
Erestor to his rooms after the incident in the Hall of Fire and Erestor had sat
there staring blindly at the wall for a long time, hardly acknowledging
Glorfindel’s presence. Erestor had only stirred when Elrond had joined them.
“Believe it,” Elrond said
while letting the small Elfling burp. “He will never bother you again.”
“I *knew* he would come
for me,” Erestor replied as he looked at Elrond. Glorfindel sat behind him with
Erestor safely wedged between the warrior’s legs. “But I never expected for it
to end that way.” Erestor shook his head, still trying to accept that Caldarn
no longer posed a threat to him.
“Neither did I,” Elrond admitted. “But I do not regret the outcome of
that confrontation. He caused his own death. He was a stupid
“Some good came out of
it,” Erestor mused aloud. Caldarn had been evil, but Êl was a precious gift.
“Caldarn never wanted to be a father, certainly not to a daughter.”
“But I will take on the
role of parent,” Glorfindel said softly. “I want to be her father.”
Erestor smiled. “What does
that make me?”
And although Êl had no
idea what the adults had been talking about, she suddenly chirped and cooed, as
if giving her input. All of the older Elves laughed and Elrond pressed a kiss
onto the raven head. “Aye, Erestor is your Nana!” That earned him a glare from
Erestor, but Elrond merely laughed it off.
~~~
That night Erestor turned
the tables around on Glorfindel and wrapped the golden-haired Elf up in his
arms. Glorfindel didn’t seem to mind and purred like a big cat, savoring the
reversal. “I am so very proud of you,” Glorfindel said as he raised his head so
he could look into Erestor’s eyes. “You did not back down. You did not run. You
stood your ground and faced him.”
“I surprised myself. I did
not think I had the courage to do so.” Erestor cast a look at the cradle which
held Êl’s sleeping form. She had been stunned to be
placed in the cradle instead of the bed, but once Glorfindel had placed her
favorite toys and blanket inside with her, she had accepted the situation and
cuddled up to one of her dolls.
“Erestor? Why the cradle?”
Glorfindel had frowned when finding the cradle in his room. He was perfectly
fine with the Elfling sleeping in their bed.
Erestor studied Glorfindel
for some time and then said, “I want us to become more intimate when time
progresses and we can hardly do that with Êl sleeping in-between us.”
“Do not rush anything,
Erestor,” Glorfindel replied, touched that the dark-haired Elf was thinking
about their future. “I will wait for you. I do not care how long it takes.”
Feeling bold, Erestor
placed a kiss onto Glorfindel’s lips. “When I had fled Caldarn’s reign of
terror I had not dared to hope that I would find a safe haven in Imladris and
friends, let alone a lover.”
“And I had never dared to
hope I would find a family. Êl and you really complete my life. I always wanted
children and... She even has my eyes,” Glorfindel said, testing the waters.
Erestor’s eyes misted over
with tears of happiness. “You really think of her as your daughter, do you not?
You amaze me…How can you extend your love in such a way? She is half-Elven.”
“I already helped raise
three half-Elves,” Glorfindel said while stroking Erestor’s long hair and
caressing his face. “I have lots of experience, which will come in handy since
you have none.” He kissed Erestor’s brow and relished feeling the naked, soft
skin beneath his fingertips as he ran them over Erestor’s back. “Êl is a
delightful Elfling and I will love her like she was my own flesh and blood.”
“I do not deserve you,”
Erestor whispered, half-jokingly. “But I am glad to have found you!” Leaning in
closer, he kissed Glorfindel sweetly.
Glorfindel savored and
deepened the kiss, but never took control away from Erestor. He knew – just as
Erestor knew – that they still had a long road ahead of them, but they would find
their way there in the end.
The end
Note: I decided against
adding ‘quick sex’ because it just didn’t fit the story. Erestor is no way
ready for that.